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- I had PTSD nightmares last night about my torture during the dictatorship here in Uruguay in the 1970s. It's the first time I've had nightmares during my week long visit here so far. They were triggered by a news story in the paper yesterday. A...
- I'm reminded again of the saying "denial ain't just a river in Egypt" here in Montevideo by the River Plate because of an invitation to tea I just got.Being from the post Dirty War generation of South America's Southern Cone (Chile, Uruguay,...
- Isn't it funny how when you finally commit to your own recovery other people in recovery out there in the world find you? I'm starting to think it's not a bad thing, too. Today I came down to the lobby of the hotel I'm staying in during my visit...
- I'm finding context is important for me. It took me from 1995 to 2007 to tell my therapist my whole PTSD story. Even in therapy sessions I didn't want to say I didn't just get PTSD from 2 sexual assaults by a pedophile as a child. Nor did I want...
- After last night's euphoric experience of PTSD recovery joy at that concert last night, today I had a nice low key experience I'm not used to. I went to a barbecue at the home of an old high school buddy, class of 1975. (I know, what a geezer I...
- I told SC in a reply to a hug tonight that tonight I went to the 35th anniversary concert celebrating the start of my favorite Uruguayan band in 1980. That was the same year the tide turned in Uruguay's dictatorship and the nonviolent movement...
- My hotel is 4 blocks from where during Uruguay's Tupamaro War some guy hit my car with a lit Molotov car bomb with me and my family inside. It was early in the 6 year war. I was 9. It jump-started PTSD for me and my family. I eventually got PTSD...
- I made it from Reagan National Airport in DC to Montevideo's airport--finally! I got a great price on the ticket, but it had 2 long airport layovers to change planes--one in Miami and one in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. I mostly did ok, but one flight...
- This is Off Topic (OT), I know, but it's Friday and next week I leave for my trip back home to Uruguay. Because I teach at a community college, I always go in July, never in January. Because Uruguay is deep down in the Southern Hemisphere (think...
- I'm asking for support because over the last few days I've had PTSD flashbacks poke their way up through my day to day activities. I've told a couple of DS PTSD members in private that I think it has something to do with anticipating my trip to...
- Today ended my next to last week of teaching summer school. I was in all over body aching pain yesterday and today. Something about goldurned kidney disease does that for days at a time once in a while. It's neuropathy. The nerve damage comes...
- Fighters 20th Anniversary July 4th celebration in DC and encouraging me to go. It was wonderful. Thank you for how you at DS PTDS have encouraged me to get out of my house and participate in life. I am so proud I took your...
- At the community college where I teach we use distance learning technology. That means I've got a distance learning aide in the room when I teach lots of classes. Over the last 4 years he and I have become good friends. He is epileptic and can't...
- It's by birthday! TWIt's July 1st, and I leave for Uruguay the 22nd. Exactly 3 weeks left. By the way, today is my 57th birthday. I won't have anybody to celebrate with today, but I'm glad I can speak of the real meaning of my birthday here. TWI...
- Thanks to everybody who encouraged me this past week to get to my doctor for my diabetes. I had had a week of blood sugar highs and lows. Those seem a lot like PTSD symptoms, so my PTSD had starting acted up on me, too. I passed out at home...