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- FF I'm on the edge. A month ago I posted a need for a 30 day countdown of support until this school year ended. I just didn't feel like I had the gas in the tank to end the year, and I was so close. For the last 28 days that support has carried...
- Last week at a restaurant I happened to run into one of my dad's old cronies. Dear old dad used his fists instead of communicating, so he's not allowed into my life any more, for five blissful drama-free years now. I realize when one of his old...
- I was a hospital chaplain, as I've mentioned here often. My health crash 4 years ago made me have to change jobs, so I teach hospital care to nursing students at a community college now. Still, I get asked to speak at a church once a month. At...
- It's that time of the semester in my death and dying classes I teach to nursing students at my community college. Every semester our textbook addresses PTSD and how there's an epidemic of suicides among our veterans of Afghanistan & Iraq. I had a...
- I just wanted to update everybody on how grief is going concerning my friend's suicide last week. It shook me and our circle of friends because she was a hospital chaplain like me and a seminary classmate in 2001.Posting here and getting over 20...
- Many of you know that part of my PTSD recovery journey has been something else along with my weekly therapy and face to face support group participation. After my first 5 years of recovery, in 2001 I decided to help myself by helping other trauma...
- I like my boss at the community college where I teach. She won teacher of the year last year so she is popular on campus with administrators and other instructors, and with her students. She's been good to me about scheduling my classes the way I...
- Going back to school Monday after this kidney infection week is on my mind today. Exactly one month left in this school year. If I can do 30 more days, I'll make it past another year on the job without going on disability. That will make 4 years...
- It's been a hard week with a kidney infection taking advantage of my kidney failure from too high dosages of Seroquel for my PTSD flashbacks. I've been feverish, on antibiotics, had a rough doctor's appointment.But today I got out of the house to...
- FF (Feeling Fragile)I'm finally just welling up with tears about this continuing kidney disease from the damage done to my kidneys by being in a clinical trial for high doses of Seroquel for PTSD back in 2010. My startle response had been so high...
- On Wed. I posted under another thread "something's wrong." I was vomiting Tues. night, I couldn't sleep, was fatigued, more PTSD, trouble maintaining. My doctor just called. What was wrong was a kidney infection brought on by my kidney damage...
- Neuropathy pain from the kidney disease side of things really hurt at work today. I was in the faculty lounge in lots of pain and said I'm proud I haven't missed school for a sick day in 15 months, a proud achievement. One of the less sensitive of...
- I enjoy my post-hospital chaplaincy job at the community college. I teach nursing students the care of patients at end of life in 3 courses at a time cross-listed between psychology and philosophy. It's meaningful both professionally using the...
- Remember I posted last week that I had a pickpocket steal my wallet with all of my credit cards and driver's license, etc in it? That the thief made $400 of fraudulent charges on my debit and credit cards before I could get a call through to the...
- Earlier this week I posted about feeling tired and worrying whether my one day off this week would be enough to restore me. I got a LOT of good encouragement, and some of it was about my right to set boundaries and do self care.I have a former...