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Been awhile since I last posted a journal. I re-read my last entry when it was 7 months and I can hear the pain in my words. The first year anniversary was on Jan. 31,2016. I made it! I survived! As...

I actually do not know what to say. 7 months today and as with every month anniversary, I tend to re-live  "that day". I still tear up but it has been a few weeks since  I actually cried. Getting...

Today was not a good day. First I woke up very tired and forced myself to go to work. I was up late last night looking for two pairs of earrings and a ring I cannot find. Very busy but frustrating...

Just me venting. I came across an album of photos of my Son's University graduation which was two years ago. There is one photo of my Son with my Husband and I was shocked! Ron looked so sick and I...

Read this and with all my heart I want it to be true. I guess life is what we make it....to a point of course. But we can control our attitude and I plan on saying this to myself daily."Some of the...

I know it will take time. Be kind to yourself. Take baby steps. All very good advice but I am so tired of the waves that come. All of a sudden I get sad. Think of my husband and the tears come. Today...

When do you stop counting the months? After the first or second year? I do not count the weeks anymore. It upset me the last time I counted. Seemed so many weeks since I saw him. I feel better these...

Yesterday was 4 months. Seems like 4 years. When I think of all that I have done and been through with lawyers, banks, accountants, memorial services etc. I am blown away! But I made it and have...

I actually had someone say to me today that I should try and find a male friend and start dating! She started by saying that since I was so positive and full of life and then she hit me with the idea...

Last night I went to a BBQ at my girlfriend's who had invited me to help celebrate her husband's birthday. I am sure this will never happen again. At least I hope not! Time came when my girlfriend...

I still cannot believe Ron is gone! Been 3 months today and I am still expecting to go into his bedroom and find him there. Every week I have a goal of disposing of  something. I plan to stay in the...

I thought I was doing so good. No tears for the last two weeks. I had sad moments but I would get busy doing something and forget the moment. I even had a few good laughs at work with my friends....

It has been 7 weeks since my husband passed away. 7 weeks and one day to be exact. I am beginning to accept what I cannot change. I understand he was so sick for so long and just so tired of fighting...