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So today was an O.K day... tomorrow i have my doctors appt where he tells us the results from the autopsy. I'm sooo nervous!!! What if nothing was wrong with him?? But they told us he wouldn't be...

I'm not having a good day at all.At work i kept getting emotional and started to cry thinking of my son. He was supposed to be here right now, and i was supposed to be spending every hour of the...

well i have a damn flu!! of course! i get MAJOR hot flashes for some reason, but i geuss that comes woth the territory! i just hope it passes soon!This past cycle my husband and i tried ALOT during...

right now im getting ready to have a family dinner.... it almost feels like a hastle. we always argue and complain. I've been very upset lately and this doesn't help.Today at work i felt soooo bad.....

today is the day... the one day that i was supposed to become a mommy. it was also my friends baby's dedication at the church today. i t was soooo hard.. i wanted to leave so many times, but i knew i...

well.... two days until my sons due date...remembrance day. how ironic and sad. all i wanted was him. now i m empty handed and not even pregnant.im sorry to write about this depressing shit, but its...

i find myself drifting away from healthy wanna be pregnant girl to pissed of eat-whatever-the-fak-i-wanna-eat girl!!! just the other day i found ou that an old friend of mine just had a baby!!! which...

well everything is going ok...im starting to feel better about myself and find that im looking forward to other things than getting pregnant..like hockey games and buying clothes...just like i used...

well...i arrived to work the other day and saw a bow full of poppy pins on the front counter... it immediatly reminded me that my son was supposed to be here on that day....remembrance day...of...

today was an average day...its my dad's birthday today..i bought him sone gifts and wechatted a little. he can't wait to be a grandpa!! even though i'm only 19, many dads would freak out if they...

well today at work was interesting.. first i got really really strong mensteral cramps, so i guess my period is coming tomorrow as planned!! anyways, my  friend at work just addmitted to me tonite...

well.... i don't think im pregnant because ive been soooo moody lately. but if im not i guess we're just going to have to try harder. its going to be disappointing to  see my period come, but i...

im having alot of trouble getting through my days off of work... i try to keep busy, but i always seem to think about  my little boy in heaven... sometimes i even pray just to see his face again or...

i'm having a really rough time today... i've been moody and running late to everything!!! plus all i've been thinking about lately is my little baby boy and how bad i wish hey was here..... just...

well today was a very emotional day... there was a ceremony at a local park today for pregnancy and infant loss awareness... we all donated money and recieved a balloon in which we wrote our babies...