I'm not having a good day at all.At work i kept getting emotional and started to cry thinking of my son. He was supposed to be here right now, and i was supposed to be spending every hour of the night running to him...I almost feel like im never going to get pregnant, and that my son was my only chance and i blew it!!! How do people survive after this? I mean, our babies have been torn from us and who knows what they are thinking...do they know we love them? I just dont know what to say anymore...my Dr. called and said that our autopsy results came in and to see him at the office...he said it wasn't urgent...but im sooooo scared! What if we find out that everything was actually O.K and we didn't have to deliver him!!!! I feel guilty every damn day for making that decision i did...and i made it fast! i didn't even take the time to think!It felt like i gave up!!!!