well.... two days until my sons due date...remembrance day. how ironic and sad. all i wanted was him. now i m empty handed and not even pregnant.im sorry to write about this depressing shit, but its hard... my best friend who just had her baby is having her daughter's recognition day at the church on my sons EDD and im really hurt that she would even ask me to come without realizing why it would be hard for us!!!  just when you think all of the tough baby times have passed(like your SUPPOSED to be monthly check up) they jsut keep coming faster and faster! now its his due date???? omg... i cant even imagine how im going to make it through this one!