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Status: So fat
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- I'm such a mess. I was on clonazepam for sleep but it started to mess with my speech and then I started not being able to remember things. I stopped taking it but my brain still feels a little funny. Yesterday I had volunteer training for 8 hours...
- I neeeeed to cut. Its been a year and a month but now the urge is back. Strong. I slipped into a depressiond a few days ago after my pdoc lowered my depression meds. Instead of leveling out and getting better I'm getting worse. I though about...
- I neeeeed to cut. Its been a year and a month but now the urge is back. Strong. I slipped into a depressiond a few days ago after my pdoc lowered my depression meds. Instead of leveling out and getting better I'm getting worse. I though about...
- So apparently my body/brain don't like it very much when my pdoc and I try to decrease my depression meds. We did this to try to get me to normal rather than slightly higher than normal 24/7. I started to notice my concentration leaving me but...
- Sometimes I think my friends don't actually like me. I guess I don't really have anything to base this on other than me being paranoid. But what if they are just putting up with me to be nice? Sometimes I feel like they are only friends with me...
- I feel like a piece of shit. I should be studying but I'm not. For some reason I can't find a guy who thinks of me as more than a piece of ass. I don't understand what is wrong with me.
- So my anorexic eating habits are back. I know its bad but I want to keep them up so badly. I'm freaking out. Its all I can think about and I really need to be studying. The only thoughts in my head are about food, eating, not eating, exercising...
- So recently I have had a resurgence of my anorexic eating habits. I am counting, restricting and compulsively exercising. I can't think about anything else. Somehow I don't have the strength I usually do to convince myself that going back down...
- So I know this isn't really that related to bipolar disorder...but its been triggered by my frequent mood swings....I can feel ana coming back. I've never really relapsed before. The most that has happened is I would stress over it for a few days...
- I can feel ana coming back. I've never really relapsed before. The most that has happened is I would stress over it for a few days and then be fine. This time its way worse.I feel like I need to lose weight...badly. I have been restricting and...
- I can't calm the f down. It just keeps getting worse. I just want to settle down so I can stop annoying my roommates. I want to stop going a mile a minute. I'm getting annoyed with myself. It all just feels uncomfortable. I'm getting obsessed...
- I am really hypomanic....maybe even manic. I keep freaking out about school and other stressful things. I can't sit still. I'm flying a mile a minute. I am getting really annoyed with this. How do I calm myself down?
- I don't understand why they make it in that shape! It is not east to swallow a rhombus. I'm quite good at swallowing pills. I can do like seven at a time. But I always have trouble with this stupid one because it has corners! What kind of pill...
- All I want to do is be productive. I'm not tired at all. I just want to get things done. Too bad my laundry is done, my clothes are all folded, my homework is all done, my room is clean, my drawers are organized, the closet is organized and I...
- Why am I so fat??? I'm so pissed I can't go work out because I was in two car accidents this week and I'm in too much pain. I'm horrible at controlling my eating too. I guess I'm just stuck being fat.