macksbaby
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- I spoke to Mack last night. He was much more positive yesterday. He has been put into the SMART Recovery Program. I have never heard of this one. But he was very excited about it. Has anyone had any experience with this program? I would love...
- Mack went to rehab today. I just got off the phone with a friend of our's that didn't know about his addiction. She told me that Mack asked her for a percocet a few weeks ago. She has given him 2. So that means that Mack wasn't exactly clean for...
- He's finally in. I was a little concerned that he would bolt at the last second. But he didn't. Now we got 28 days. By the time he gets out, he will have 3 months clean and sober. And hopefully the tools to stay that way. He's supposed to call...
- sigh..... There are so many emotions right now. I can't tell up from down. Mack has been clean for 2 months. He's doing good. Looks healthy again. He smiles. He laughs. He sings to me everyday. He's ready to move forward. I'm ready to move...
- So mack was supposed to enter a suboxone program on July 25th. But because he has been clean over 30 days, his counsellor changed his treatment program to just straight rehab followed by IOP. No suboxone. I totally understand that and agree with...
- Only 8 days left. I'm happy and sad about Mack going to rehab. He needs to go. He needs to learn what "recovery" is. Just because he's not using, it doesn't mean he's in "recovery". But at the same time, I'm going to miss him. We have our ups...
- Some days, I can hold things together pretty well. I can wake up and see the sun shining, hear the birds singing and look at everything that has happened as a learning experience. I can compartmentalize my emotions and get through the day. And...
- My addict made it to the 1 month mark. I am relieved and amazed. Which is pretty sad. I never thought our lives would lead down this road. He is still scheduled to enter rehab on the 25th. He's still checking in every morning to see if they...
- My dumbass addict did not give me all the information. Of course I don't believe he asked the right questions when he was on the phone with RCKC yesterday. Mack entering rehab in the next day or two is not happening. What did happen is that they...
- Mack did his daily check in this morning and they said they will have an open bed in the next day or two. They will call him back with what's available this afternoon. He's a little upset because he will not be going to the treatment center that...
- Mack is all ready for rehab. He's still clean. His bag is packed. I purchased him the approved toiletries to take with him. Just waiting on that bed to open. He's calling everyday. I need him to go. Badly.There are so many emotions building...
- This seems to be the cycle. He's looking for anything that is wrong to start a fight. This way, he has an excuse to stay miserable. Either he's using or his body is telling him it's time to use. I don't think he has used yet. If he had he would...
- Mack was accepted into the treatment program last Monday. On Wednesday, he started calling for an available bed. On Thursday, they still didn't process his paperwork. Friday, still nothing. He needs to call today around noon to check again. ...
- He has finally admitted that he needs help with his opiate/heroin addiction. I hope they accept him into this treatment program. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ACCEPT HIM INTO THIS PROGRAMI'm tired.
- It's been a while since I've been here. I needed to take some time to try to figure things out. And what I've realized is that no matter how much I think, I'm still right where I was. Nothing makes sense. Anyhoo....My Mack is still using heroin....