After talking to her about the rapes and my cousin she simply stated. You should probably just tell all this to your therapist, that what she's for. I just turned off emotionally. Been throwing up for most the day and feeling very numb after remembering so much about.... The past. My moms been avoiding me now. It's obvious she doesn't want any part of this. Her crazy sad excuse of a daughter having a breakdown at church, bursting into tears and running out in front of everyone, how embarrassing. How the hell do you think I feel mom? I feel like complete shit. After crying for nearly an hour in a parking lot, I feel so stupid for crying. My dad saw my tear stained eyes and I froze. I just wanted to disappear, I knew he knew I had cried. He stared at me, after a while he just walked away like nothing happened. I was tempted to just make a break for it then and there, but I was surrounded by people, I was stuck in a room with other people that just stared at me. What is this girls problem? My family is now just basically shunning me. Because I stood up to mother and I yelled out that this family is far from perfect. I don't regret it. I'm still so filled with anxiety and pain. I keep gagging, trying not to throw up anymore. My head is spinning. I'll just have to go through this again with my therapist tomorrow.. Looks like this will be a long night, and even longer day. Wish me luck.