Today I came home from school because I was in so much pain I could barely stand. Couldn't even breath. I was throwing up and squeezing my stomach trying to make it stop. This isn't the first time this has happened, in fact it happens alot. I'm always in pain, there's just days were it paralyzes me and some days it makes me throw up and not be able to eat for weeks. It's one of the many prices I have to pay, and it's all because of my cousin. I decided it's better to blame him instead of myself. Though even with that I struggle. Because of him I relive the pain every single minute of everyday. It haunts me and no matter what all I can do is wait for it to pass. I can't stop it.