magnadoodle

I've recently realized how bad my childhood was. I always thought "it wasn't so bad" and "my parents are nice and tried their best."I then realized that both of my parents leaned on me (emotionally),...

I took a 4 hour nap, even though I wasn't tired. It was such an unusual deep sleep. I woke up, felt like I was going to panic, and then broke into sobbing for several hours.All I could think was, "No...

I guess part of me wishes to go back to how things were before everything hit the fan. Back when things made sense.It's just really sad to have the divorce filed, and the full situation hit me.Worst...

34th street will have to do.5am Saturday nightthree cabstabs, and a whole lot of atmwithdrawlsgirls in their 20s going to plenty of places,some shiny and some dull.Brick walls and glances and laughs...

I think a lot of us on here, who have stayed with abusive people, really do have problems in our families.I THOUGHT I had the "perfect childhood" because my parents often told me I did. My parents...

He'd had his profile up for a while, and it sounded like a very normal and "classy" profile.Then he changed it last night, and he sounded like someone I'd never met.The worst part was, he wrote he...

I'm very close to putting all of this behind me.But I still can't believe he looked me in the eye, married me, looked my parents in the eye and said he loved me, when he asked for their blessing. I...

He did follow through on a promise he made me. I was surprised.I gave him everything he wanted.It was like a weight was lifted. I was surprisingly sad, more so than relieved. I guess I realized it's...

It's been a long, hard path.I think I have finally accepted the truth.The truth will set you free.I ran from the truth, and buried my face in the warmth of a beautiful lie -- that he was a loving man...

I feel like I'm closer to being healed.I'm very, very angry. I thought I was angry because he's dragging his feet on the divorce, and not keeping other promises, but I NOW see that I'm really angry...

I worked through things, and I no longer feel angry.Then I made some progress w/ my career! Very exciting. Got a phone interview for tomorrow, my side business was featured in a blog, and I was...

I'm really furious. My ex agreed to pay for the divorce. He told me this 3 times. Then he sends a check for 1/2 of the amount. I'm NOT going to cash that. That is insulting! I'm not going to take...

Today I've focused on completing tasks, large and small. This was challenging for me since I've felt so anxious and foggy-minded.I'm focusing on finding ways to make more money, making new friends,...

He said he's going to sign the papers, finally. And he said the check (for the divorce is in the mail).I don't believe him though. He said he was bringing me the check on 3 different occasions and...

I'm sad, thinking that yes, these abusers are horrible. But why have we allowed them to stay in our lives?When I read other's stories, I see how dreams and confidence are stolen by these abusive...