dumbidiot

I changed my way of thinking to just feel like i am doing the right thing so far, sure i feel like a loser and a outcast but i guess i am one. I feel that when i drink i worry a lot less about ugly i...

had a good night out, just hanging out with a couple of friends, oddly enough i like to be under the influence, why, it makes my life a lot more fun, even more fun than the time i ended up with...

I finally realized that, my life in general is pointless to live anymore, i have already tried killing myself, and god denied that from happening, why he did i still don't know at all. Loveliness and...

My new years resolution was that i will not end my life, because i have noticed that there are a lot of people that i have touched in my life by my actions and i cant change that. I am getting tired...

The whole day went fast at work, i was feeling happy the whole 8 hours i was there and more. As soon as i get home my father tells me that he broke my computer, i asked him why he did such a thing...

I was hanging out with a friend of mine, we went looking at guns, i wonder why they are so affordable. i might actually get one, i never needed protection, but its a sure way to off yourself, yea its...

i am tired of this pain, i really am, there seems no more reason for me to live here anymore, my time is coming soon and i hope the ones i leave behind will forgive me and if they don't then, well...

After searching for a while i have come the conclusion that my life has to end on new years eve, why, just cause its the way i decided to plan it, It will be simple and painless, and no one will care...

Title says most of it, i have realized that i will die by myself in the future because of my depression and i don't care cause i can do something to shorten the time from too long to too short, This...

I just seemed to have had it with living my life to this point as a nothing in society, i still think about killing myself everyday. Every idea is not foolproof so i choose not to follow through with...

I am tired as hell and i can barely keep my eyes open, i think i only slept like 3 hours, which is only short of 30 minutes of how long i usually sleep which is 3 and a half hours. I don't really...

I had a really fast day at work, but halfway through it i fell into a deep depression. I felt like taking the liquid we use to clean the mechanical parts and drink it to ease the pain but i dint...

Today came as a sad day for me like every other day as i seem to have realized that even on thanksgiving where family is supposed to come together, i had no one i understand its never a good thing to...