depression dosent win, it dominates

I just seemed to have had it with living my life to this point as a nothing in society, i still think about killing myself everyday. Every idea is not foolproof so i choose not to follow through with it and i don't like that cause i know there's something that will work and i will not have to live in a world that i care about but it doesn't seem to care about me, One person out of seven billion, might as well be stepping on an ant, at least the ant has a purpose. I will get the idea soon and i hope it works correctly because my life really is not worth saving, nothing good is going to come from me being alive in the future. Depression never leaves me it just hides in the shadows, maybe its time i joined it.