end of another month, still alive....

I am tired as hell and i can barely keep my eyes open, i think i only slept like 3 hours, which is only short of 30 minutes of how long i usually sleep which is 3 and a half hours. I don't really feel tired as i have gotten used to not being able to dream or have a good full night sleep. One reason might be for my tiredness is i spent maybe a good 16 hours on my feet from work and helping out one of my friends put a crappy jeep engine back together, oddly enough he thanked me countless times that i took time out of my busy(yea right i don't do much) schedule to help him out but i thought i never put a motor together so it might be a good way to learn some stuff, and i did, I still feel like i was in his way the entire time though, i always feel like this with anything i start doing new and i blame myself for not mastering the knowledge fast enough, i guess i have to understand i cant rush progress just watch it grow itself, but i can put it in a order so it grows in the direction i want. some can call it perfectionism but i call it becoming a jack of all trades. (:-l)