Life alone

Today came as a sad day for me like every other day as i seem to have realized that even on thanksgiving where family is supposed to come together, i had no one i understand its never a good thing to celebrate these things but i just felt like there is no hope for Christmas if i cant like thanksgiving alone. on the other had my goal is coming closer to being fulfilled every day and i know that its going to happen soon enough. I also seemed to get depressed extremely when i see a couple kissing or holding hands in the public, so i don't like to go out a lot because of this.