Squarley

 Hello my dear friends just wanted to say hi feeling really down today and this is stressful trying to do this new DS major prayers need Hope to go on keeping you all in my heart sending your...

 Hello my dear friends just letting you know I haven't wrote a journal for a long time so many things of happened in my life for my daughter passing away to two of my nieces to my health going...

Well hello everybody I haven't been here I can't believe I have not been here for over year I don't like to write negative things and I was hoping some positive things will come about so that I would...

THE PAIN I FEEL IT GOES SO DEEP, BECAUSE 2 PEOPLE I LOVE WENT TO SLEEP,THEY SLEEP NOW WITH GOD YOU SEE, BUT THAT'S NOT WHERE I WANT THEM TO BE,  I WANT THEM TO BE WITH ME. MY THOUGHTS YOU SEE DON'T...

I WAS AT MY GRANDSON GAME ,O I LOVE HIM SO MUCH, SITTING THERE WITH THE SUN ON ME AND THE BREEZE AND THE TRESS AND BLUE SKY , THEN WHY DO I FEEL SO SAD I SHOULD BE HAPPY ,BUT O IF YOU ONLY KNEW HOW...

SOME TIMES I FEEL I SHOULD NOT WRITE IN HERE BECAUSE NOT MUCH CHANGES IN MY LIFE, I DO WRIT IN A JOURNAL HERE AT HOME EVERY NIGHT ,I KEEP TRACK OF MY GOOD AND BAD DAYS AND HOW I AM FEELING ND PAIN...

I FEEL I AM IN THAT MOVIE GROUND HOG DAY, SOME THING EVERY DAY, I HAVE HORRENDOUS SUFFERING EVER MORNING ,I HAVE CRUSHING PAIN AND SORROW, I FEEL MY HEART IS BLEEDING HAVING THIS PHYSICAL AND MENTAL...

I WROTE A NEW JOURNAL LET ALL MY FEELINGS OUT SO TIRED OF THINGS HAPPENING TO ME LIKE THIS I COULD NEVER REWRITE THAT IT WHERE I WAS LAST NIGHT , CRYING MY HEART OUT WHY WHY WHY,JUST READY TO GIVE...

IT IS GETTING UP IN THE MORNING AND SITTING DOWN TO EAT AND NO ONE THERE, ITS GOING IN THE OTHER ROOM AND NOBODY THERE, IT IS LOOKING AT THE PHONE AND NOBODY THERE. IT IS A DARK PLACE TO BE, ITS...

WE CAN HOPE CAN,T WE, I AM SITTING HERE IN PAIN THINKING CAN I CHANGE ANY THING , ONE I DO WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT, 2 YEARS AGO I WAS SO SICK I WAS DRINKING BOOST TO GAIN WEIGHT ,NEVER BELIEVING I GAIN...

IT IS THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN, AND AS HARD AS IT IS FOR ME ,LOSING MY DAUGHTER AT THIS TIME OF YEAR 7 YEARS AGO, I STILL WISH EVERY ONE TO HAVE THE BEST HOLIDAYS THAT THEY CAN, FOR IF YOU CAN FIND...

KNOWING I WILL HAVE A FEW BAD DAYS OF BEING SAD I WANT TO SEND MY FRIENDS SOME GOOD THOUGHT,------     ONE HAND IN MINE, MY HAND IN THINE. WE WALK THROUGH LIFE'S STARK SHADOW, TWO AS ONE AND ONE...

SINCE IT WAS A BETTER DAY AFTER A BAD WEEK, I WANT TO SHARE IT WITH YOU' I DO FEEL BETTER AND WENT TO MY GRAND SON BASKETBALL GAMES HE HAD 2 TODAY, HE WON ONE AND LOST ONE. WENT TO GET HIM SOME MORE...

I HAVE A LIST OF FOLKS I KNOW, ALL WRITTEN IN A BOOK AND EVERY YEAR AT CHRISTMAS TIME, I GO AND TAKE A LOOK, AND THAT IS WHEN I REALIZE THAT THESE NAMES ARE PART ,NOT OF THE BOOK THERE WRITTEN IN,...

I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME I WAKE UP SO SICK TO MY STOMACH AND CAN NOT SEE WELL AND PAIN ALL OVER ,DIZZY, IT COULD BE THE WEATHER CAUSING ALL MY FIBROMYALGIA AND MENIERE'S AND MIGRAINES AND...