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  Long Time...

  Posted by: brea_01

  Posted: 11/10/2021

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  It's been a LONG time since I've been on here. I hope that everyone is well! In this long amount of time things have changed so drastically, but yet not at the same time.  Currently I am preparing myself, or trying to, to get ready for jury trial in December. The thought of seeing him again has began to over-run my life once again. I am having nightmares, flashbacks... I am hearing his voice again! I tried reaching out to a local support group member when they first started, but haven't heard...

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  Today

  Posted by: brea_01

  Posted: 05/13/2020

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  At this point I don't know what to think or to do or say. All I'm left with is three words, I'm so tired. I'm tired of thinking that things are going to change. I am tired of thinking that my life is going to hit a postive turn. I am tired of thinking that I may one day be permantly happy with if not everything than everything.  Courts have been closed down, so that means more delays. More delays in closure, more days in thinking that I actually did what needed to be done against these...

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  What's Wrong With Me?

  Posted by: brea_01

  Posted: 06/07/2019

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  Tonight/this morning I catch myself thinking of the horrible thoughts to myself... "Just end it, don't listen to everyone. Stop fighting it! You really are the worthless piece of s*** he called you out to be" and I catch myself shaking with fear because I don't know what to do. I thought things were looking up for me! I've been seeing a counselor, got set up with a support group, living somewhere I will always know is safe, started a job today, and I just can't seem to let the positives of my...

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  New Friend

  Posted by: brea_01

  Posted: 06/04/2019

  brea_01 became friends with arfie.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 06/04/2019

  brea_01 became friends with arfie.

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  Getting Out

  Posted by: brea_01

  Last Reply: Ontime2019 06/01/2019

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  This is one of the hardest things I think I've had to grasp... my life is no ordinary one. Last February I was sexually assualted while I was attending school and I have just now moved past the preliminary hearing stage, still have yet another six to eight months. After I moved home for the summer, I moved away to try things out on my own, which was fun for about the first two months. I then somehow managed to get myself tangled up with someone who I thought was one I thought I could trust and...

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 05/30/2019

  brea_01 joined the group Healthy Relationships.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 03/28/2019

  brea_01 became friends with Omgboy.

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: brea_01

  Posted: 03/31/2019

  brea_01 commented on the discussion Need Help.

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  Need Help

  Posted by: brea_01

  Last Reply: brea_01 03/31/2019

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  Hello again, I'm so lost right now... I've loved and been so greatful for all the love and support on the other posts that I've made in the other groups, but tonight I am just losing my mind. I am still happy with my amazing boyfriend, but I feel so alone. There's no one around me that I can just call to cry to, I can't feel any other emotion but saddness. I've tried breathing exercies, tried music, even just sleeping, but nothing is working. How do I do this? Does anyone know how to make this...

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  Joined New Group

  Posted by: brea_01

  Posted: 03/24/2019

  brea_01 joined the group Depression.

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  New Friend

  Posted by: brea_01

  Posted: 03/23/2019

  brea_01 became friends with FeliciaAnn.

• Anxiety
  

  This Past Week

  Posted by: brea_01

  Last Reply: jewells1 03/25/2019

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  This week I would finally be one step closer to be done, at least that's what I thought. As you may know if you've read my previous posts, I was sexually assulted over a year ago, and this week was going to determine when this would finally make it's way into a trial. I went into that courthouse thinking I would have to sit up there on stand and give my testimony to a judge, my family, and that God awful monster at a priliminary hearing. After arriving I met with my case counselor, her...

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  Why?

  Posted by: brea_01

  Posted: 03/05/2019

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  How can I be so terrified of something I know can never happen to me? This never happens to anyone except on television, do I really need to worry? These are all things I've told myself years ago, but now I never question anything being possible to happen to anyone, no matter how young, old, no matter of nothing. This never leaves me alone, these are the thoughts that haunt me at night. Even when I think I've had the best day in the world, they still find away to bring voices into my mind and...

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  Times Catching Up

  Posted by: brea_01

  Last Reply: Kiwi2633 03/06/2019

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  Hey there, I know the last time I put anything it was about the fear that I was losing my friends, but tonight I'm just in my thoughts and only in fear of what the future has for me. In a little more than two weeks I begin the start of trial for my sexual assualt case and I haven't been so terrified in so long. I know I'm going to have those dearest to me there for support, but I catch myself having nightmares again, the constant fear that the monster that destroyed me will someday find me, and...