EmmaammE

its amazing what a bit of sleep can do. feeling somewhat better now and a lot less delusional

seriously proper not right. Its midnight and i cant sleep even tho im exhausted because i feel sick and my head is spinning. my body keeps doing weird things - its not really fitting coz im aware...

I feel really weird. kinda sick, dizzy, light headed, blury eyed, sweating hot even tho ive been freezing most of the day and just generally achy and exhausted. I dont quite no if it too much...

Im disgusted in myself. food is so disgusting

ive had enough i want it to end i want to disapear no more please no more im tired

I was mega ill last night i actually nearly took myself to hospital. Ive not eaten an awful lot recently and after taking 60 laxatives my body decided it couldnt cope. The pain was bad but there was...

I scrapped again. not bad only a tiny bit but i still did it. I want to come off my tablets coz i cant control myself anymore they make me fidgety and i cant sit still, they make me eat. im seeing...

Ok so you want to no why?!Ive been at my mums this week and its really hard to get a minutes peace and quiet let alone get on the computer.The week before i was at mums my sister came to stay for...

i am soooo very hacked off

My mum was staying over the weekend and she found my stash of laxatives and pills. She asked my sister about it and Bethan said that she would find out. Apparently mum thinkings im a drug addict and...

I went to see the psychiatrist today and i am my right weight for what i should be. I was horrified that i should weigh so much! my ideal weight would be way too low apparently. i feel so confused.

Im feeling a lot better in myself and doing well with the counsellor. I really like her and although the sessions are hard work i actually look forward to going. She makes me think about things i...

i hate food. I hate it so much. I hate putting things in my mouth and i had the thought of food in my tummy. recently when ive eaten ive felt really sick or ill after. I had a craving for sweets...

I was doing so well dieting and eating well, then someone gave me a chocolate egg today and it was a massive trigger for my sweet cravings. i managed to control it for 7 hours but now im working my...

i hate this eating lark. I just want to eat and eat and eat! im starving but im full. THis morningi looked in the mirror and nearly thought to myself that i was slim. I hate myself i hate eating but...