Friday night: Today wasn't too bad at work. It was a bit tense with the other para when I went in, but I broke the ice and asked how his evening was and how he was today. He seemed to be ok after that. I was sort of crabby today, for no particular reason, so it was a big leap for me to be the one to step-up. But, I work with the guy every day and don't have the energy for any B.S. The kids were really easy today, so that was nice. I am so glad it is the weekend! A few ladies from Compassionate Friends, and myself, are going out to dinner and to see my son, Chris, do his D.J. thing, Sat. night. The ladies suggested it and I was like....Okaaaay. They seem in awe of it, or something. I am always proud to show my son off. He is very, very, good. But on the other hand, I have been listening to him practice since he was 14. He is 28 now. And, I had to deal with his used-to-be band, practicing in my garage, for many months. (I rarely heard a complete song. They would just start over, & over, & over...) I just see (& hear) it differently. But, it does make me proud to see others so interested. And, it is a stretch for us to go out. One of the ladies lost her 8 yr. old son 3 yrs. ago when he accidentally hung himself. Another lost her son in a car accident. And, yet another, who we are trying to talk into going, lost her son just 3 mos. before Scott to an accidental overdose, by methadone, just like Scott. I am not sure who else is coming. Chris' girlfriend works at the restaurant/sports bar and is going to reserve a table for us so we can be right up front. No other big plans for the weekend. Just some housework & laundry. I did get invited for a night of pampering by another friend but since I already had plans I had to decline. It was for a fund-raiser....haircuts, foot massages, manicures, etc. I hardly do anything and then everything comes at once. Why is that?!?!? Once again I am counting my blessings to have people around me that want to be around me. Sometimes, (often) I don't even want to be around myself. I am going to bed in just moments. It is not even 11 p.m. That is HUGE for me. I surely hope sleep comes! Peace to all who are reading this. You are all in my thoughts, and wishes, for healing.
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