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Cupcake

eshaw
eshaw
So petty, really. To think I let a cupcake ruin my day. I have done well at avoiding sweets, I don't even really like cupcakes. A cookie, that's a different story. I ate the damn cupcake. I didn't even enjoy it. As I'm sure you all know much too well, my eating disorder is screaming at me to engage in unhealthy behaviors to compensate. Nope, I'm gonna sit with these feelings of anxiety, disgust and shame and wait until they pass. Right here alone with this sick feeling.
wildflowers44
wildflowers44
eshaw,

I know it feels unbearable right now, but the feelings will pass. And as you sit with those feelings, just know that in time, the more you experience sitting with the anxiety, the feelings of guilt and disgust, the quicker they will pass.

I don't know if that makes it any easier to deal with your feelings in the moment. I know it is so, so hard.

But really, commend yourself for being brave enough to challenge yourself. That is huge. You could have just given in and let the eating disordered thoughts control you, but you didn't. You chose to fight back. You are brave.
kathywonders
kathywonders
Sorry youre feeling so bad about the cupcake. Im glad though that you realise the "petty" side of it too. This incident will pass. I hope youll be able to make some good food choices this weekend
uniquorn
uniquorn
Just talking to my therapist last night about donuts since they are so common in my office. I called them bad food, but she corrected me - "there is no bad food". Proud of you for not engaging in self defeating behavior to compensate. I know how that is. NO reason to feel disgust or shame at all...you ate ONE! Wow...that's success in my book! I have been eating good and eating healthy portions and that my friend is success in my book!!! One cupcake is a victory (10 would be a reason for shame and disgust)! Soooo proud of you!!!
kpsurfersfan
kpsurfersfan
I think you should congratulate yourself for having that one and "sitting with it"... even though it was hard. This is still a huge victory!!!
Celebrate how far you have come and don't let the ED rob you of your self-respect. The stinking thinking as I call it is an echo from the past and we can choose to keep listening to it and validating it, OR we can challenge it one thought at a time, one lie at a time.

You go girl!! :)