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i am also realizing that i suffer from this illusion that i am suppose to perform oral sex on men.  that was one of the acts my uncle did with me every night.  he drew pictures of me on my knees...

i like to read on carl jung.  i like his ideas about two selves.  i believe that.  i think there is the child and then the adult.  the adolescences is the transitional period.  when something...

i met this dude about a month ago.  i bought marijuana from him.  it has been really hard for me to buy from anyone b/c everyone thinks i am a police.  i guess i dress well, groom well, and carry...

do i deserve to feel safe? sure i do. it's the law. it's my human right.the five building blocks of safety:CREATE GROUND RULESi am doing this for myself on my own. i am okay with that. i think it...

i don't think i have ever completed this book. i want to know. i've been through therapy. i am teaching yoga now. i have done a few things to help me heal: church and boxing. i have come a long...

i am readding: mindsight: the new science of personal transformation.  i am enjoying it.  i notice strong connections to yoga beliefs in the reading.  that's good b/c i practice and teach yoga. 

it has been a good minute since i have been on here.  i have to keep my practice on here consistant.  i am still recovering.  today i thought to myself: you will drive yourself insane trying to be...

God, give me the strength to take control of my life and my destiny.  Palsm 10

today i subbed a yoga class to a new group (new time) and they liked me.  i sound like sally fields.  but i know i she felt.  this one lady from a previous class that i taught tapped her neighbor...

today turned out not so bad.  my nights have not been the greatest.  i have been working alot these past two weeks.  so i have been tired.  that could be a reason i have been stressing so much. ...

i have a yoga class that i teach.  i'm really proud of it.  i do get nervous before each class.  some days are better than others.  my practice is good but sometimes i mess up on my directions. ...

i hate it!  the attendance is low.  i hoping it isn't me.  i'm making up excuses, so i am not going to do it here.  i'm just so nervous having people watching me.  i have to find away to over...

i finished my letter to my abuser.  my therapist asked if i was up to it.  i read it to him last week.  i was fine putting it together.  a few hours before our meeting i started to get nervous. ...

i remember everything that happen to me at the age of six when i lived with you.  i remember sharing the bed with you.  i remember you pressing up on my me.  i remember you pushing my head down...

i rocked it!  i subbed a yoga class this morning and i was awesome.  i wasn't nervous so much.  i made a noticeable mistake but i got right back into the rhythm with confidence.  i could have...