grasshopper7

i'm sad that michael jackson is gone.  i actually became afraid for myself.  i saw some similarities .  i believe michael died from depression - no one wants to talk about that.  i thought maybe...

the yoga has made a difference in my life.  sometimes i forget about the effects of the abuse.  i'll walk around through out the day not thinking about how low i feel.  amazing!  i have not felt...

i got the yoga teaching gig - every saturday at 9:30 am.  i'm proud of myself because i found the courage to do this.  it feels good to do yoga.  it's really helping me with the stress.  it's...

this past saturday may 23, 2009 i taught my first yoga class!  i was just suppose to go up there to observe the class b/c the yogi is about to move out of the state.  the yogi did not show and so...

i'm too embarrassed to really talk about it, but i know i need to.  the past two weeks has not been that great.  i've met someone who is not good for me.  i don't know how to stop it.  i mean i...

i was on my way to the train station - walking and i saw kilo across the street.  he was the last person i thought to see in the city with everyone just leaving from work.  but i did spot him.  i...

i had a fabulous day manni took a walki took a free yoga classthe little old yoga lady was sweeti went to the museumi had an exciting brunchtofu scrambler and soysagei took a walk around the...

i'm thinking a lot about things. i turned my tv off over three weeks ago.  i'm noticing how i feel more.  i think i was drowning my sorrows into Law and Order. i used those shows to stop crime,...

i had a great morning.  i got up early and did 45 minutes of yoga.  i'm taking a course (certification) in yoga.  i'm not sure what i want to do with it.  i may volunteer some place where i can...

I was just thinking about how this entire horrific experience rooted from the child molestation has stunted (prevent the growth of; to stunt a child) my growth.  As I heal, I mature, I become wiser,...

every negative thought that i have i'll say something good.  if i can't think of anything i'll say that i am beautiful.  because of the trauma i say and do bad things. i will practice goodness. ...

i go to my therapist on mondays.  i have been skipping sessions because it's hard to talk about yourself.  it's exhausting to remeber the past.  it is a lot of work at trying to heal.

i wonder how can i forgive my uncle for molesting me.  someone told me that God forgives because he can forget.  i get that.  the book: the courage to heal, says we do not have to forgive the...

Michael it is so important to try to smile and speak to people!  It will never get better if you do not try.

how am i feeling today?  sad.  i really enjoy this website.  it does get hard at times to read some of the stories because they can be familiar and your heart goes out to the survivors.  i pray...