grasshopper7

i want to love but i fear sex.  i fear sex because of the trauma from the sexual child abuse.  and now into my adulthood i fell out of practice with having a sexual relationship with women.  i am...

 i guess there are DSM guidlines for PTSD diagnosis. i have been diagnosed with PTSD. in my case i have had several incidents of trauma. my PTSD symptoms happen when i get stressed and have a...

i used to work for this crappy company the was run by poor managers.  the experience added to my stress for close to four years.  the company shut down b/c of poor management.  i met these folks...

i understand you. i'm sorry for your pain. i am in therapy and it has done some good. but what has really made a significant change in my life is prayer, reading, boxing, and yoga. yoga has helped...

 these past couple of days have been a struggle emotionally.  i feel abanden and confused.  i'm angry and sad.  i feel alone.  i have been thinking about a list i could write about all the...

i went home this july.  i had a great time.  i spent about two weeks home.  i hung out with all my cousins.  i saw my aunts and uncle.  spent the first night at one of my aunt's home.  it was...

i'm reading carl j. jung and the subject of the unconscious mind and the shadow self.  we tend to judge other people when in fact we are experiencing a mirrored image of ourselves.  we don't like...

i'm sad that michael jackson is gone.  i actually became afraid for myself.  i saw some similarities .  i believe michael died from depression - no one wants to talk about that.  i thought maybe...

the yoga has made a difference in my life.  sometimes i forget about the effects of the abuse.  i'll walk around through out the day not thinking about how low i feel.  amazing!  i have not felt...

i got the yoga teaching gig - every saturday at 9:30 am.  i'm proud of myself because i found the courage to do this.  it feels good to do yoga.  it's really helping me with the stress.  it's...

this past saturday may 23, 2009 i taught my first yoga class!  i was just suppose to go up there to observe the class b/c the yogi is about to move out of the state.  the yogi did not show and so...

i'm too embarrassed to really talk about it, but i know i need to.  the past two weeks has not been that great.  i've met someone who is not good for me.  i don't know how to stop it.  i mean i...

i was on my way to the train station - walking and i saw kilo across the street.  he was the last person i thought to see in the city with everyone just leaving from work.  but i did spot him.  i...

i had a fabulous day manni took a walki took a free yoga classthe little old yoga lady was sweeti went to the museumi had an exciting brunchtofu scrambler and soysagei took a walk around the...

i'm thinking a lot about things. i turned my tv off over three weeks ago.  i'm noticing how i feel more.  i think i was drowning my sorrows into Law and Order. i used those shows to stop crime,...