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i go to my therapist on mondays.  i have been skipping sessions because it's hard to talk about yourself.  it's exhausting to remeber the past.  it is a lot of work at trying to heal.

i wonder how can i forgive my uncle for molesting me.  someone told me that God forgives because he can forget.  i get that.  the book: the courage to heal, says we do not have to forgive the...

i go to my therapist on mondays.  i have been skipping sessions because it's hard to talk about yourself.  it's exhausting to remeber the past.  it is a lot of work at trying to heal.

i wonder how can i forgive my uncle for molesting me.  someone told me that God forgives because he can forget.  i get that.  the book: the courage to heal, says we do not have to forgive the...

Michael it is so important to try to smile and speak to people!  It will never get better if you do not try.

how am i feeling today?  sad.  i really enjoy this website.  it does get hard at times to read some of the stories because they can be familiar and your heart goes out to the survivors.  i pray...

i found a new term: repetiton compulsion.  i think i've discovered something new about me.  i do a lot of reading.  i'm reading the Bible: Luke.  i'm practicing how to pray.

Repetition compulsion - reliving the child abuse into adulthood.  re-enacting the abuse.  repeating a traumatic event.  sigmund freud: beyond the pleasure principle. 

how do i feel about sex:  i want it a lot.  that is what my mind is telling me.  i like to be dominated and i feel like that can only happen with the company of men.  it hurts when i am...

mantra/poem:each time i walk forward,i step into a new placewhatever it was behind me,will be forgotten* i am reading: mindsight over and coss referencing it with: mindfulness - in plain english. ...

it is about transforming the mind.  i feel like there is a lot of yoga ideas in this book: quieting the mind to sort things out.i taught a great yoga class today!

do i deserve to feel safe? sure i do. it's the law. it's my human right.the five building blocks of safety:CREATE GROUND RULESi am doing this for myself on my own. i am okay with that. i think it...

i don't think i have ever completed this book. i want to know. i've been through therapy. i am teaching yoga now. i have done a few things to help me heal: church and boxing. i have come a long...

i am readding: mindsight: the new science of personal transformation.  i am enjoying it.  i notice strong connections to yoga beliefs in the reading.  that's good b/c i practice and teach yoga. 

it has been a good minute since i have been on here.  i have to keep my practice on here consistant.  i am still recovering.  today i thought to myself: you will drive yourself insane trying to be...