Larissa238

yesterday was my appointment with the disability doctor. After some really embarrassing moments (he asked me what the capital of Italy was, and I, without hesitation, said "Paris". I then look at...

My stepdad and I have always been close, but in the past year or so we have grown distant as I have made choices he does not approve of (becoming an atheist, going on disability, etc). I understand...

I just have to get through 2 more days before I see the disability doctor. I'm fucked up enough that he just might commit me on the spot. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing. I talked to my...

Okay, I realize that Feb 2nd was me scouting for a suicide attempt, and I now see how what I thought was a happy life is just a band-aid with a happy face on it over the biggest, most disgusting,...

Okay, I've had a couple large glasses of mojitos, so I may not be that coherent, but I will try and correct at least the spelling mistakes with my spell check.Today is my birthday. Yesterday I went...

Last night I got so pissed. Pissed isn't even the word to describe it. It was pure, all consuming anger. Every single muscle in my body was tense, the acid churning in my stomach, obsessing over...

I'm a bit hypomanic... I'm going to let this go for a bit to see how much I can get done... dinner is prepping (cooking ground beef to use later), all the laundry from the month is in the wash, took...

Today I was feeling a bit better. Last night went totally psychotic and had to take klonopin. I was talking to my sister who is a social worker, and she was wondering why klonopin takes away my...

I was pretty psychotic this morning (there is work being done on the apartment above us, and I wanted to run up there and scream at the workers), along with lying in bed, totally convinced I was a...

still tired. Went to Target to get Geo's meds. Getting signs that period is imminent. Scares me so bad. I haven't had one in 5 years because they make me go beyond psychotic, but I can't afford new...

I'm so tired. I've been doing a lot of stuff in real life lately and I'm just exhausted. That and the depression is kicking in. My birthday is 6 days away and counting. I don't know how I feel about...

Geo's not taking me seriously on the whole "I'm leaving you" thing. I have done it in the past, irrationally. This is rational and thought out. We will see. I FUCKING HATE THIS SITE! IT DOUBLED MY 2...

Geo's not taking me seriously on the whole "I'm leaving you" thing. I have done it in the past, irrationally. This is rational and thought out. We will see.

I love Geo. He has changed my life for the better. With him by my side, I have made huge strides in healing from my painful past. But, he has changed along with me- but not for the better. I remember...

I got my food stamps today! Yay! I can now go to the store and buy all the veggies my little heart desires. Just think... tomorrow I can be eating broccoli, cauliflower, carrots, spinach (oh man, do...