I'm exhausted

yesterday was my appointment with the disability doctor. After some really embarrassing moments (he asked me what the capital of Italy was, and I, without hesitation, said "Paris". I then look at him funny and say "Wait, did you say Italy? That's Rome") He said that at least I corrected myself. It just sucks. I was in a deep, horrible hole of depression a couple days ago, and when it came time to see the doctor I was fine. 
I went a bit hypomanic this morning, and now (5pm! damn it's late) I'm emotionally crashing hard. I'm having trouble staying vertical, but a guy is working on Geo's car and he only speaks Spanish. Geo doesn't speak Spanish, so I'm the only one who can talk to the guy. As soon as the guy leaves, I'm lying down. Geo is lucky and napping. I want to be there with him, but I have to stay for Frank (the guy helping us with the car). 
I started feeling really dizzy, so I made myself some tomato soup... so it's not from lack of food... I'm just dealing with depressive exhaustion. 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I am so sorry you had to experience that mental eval, they are sucky to say the least. I will tell you right now, so you don\'t get your hopes up to high, only 20% of the people that apply for SSDI get approved on the first time, when you appeal, only 40% get approved the second time, you end up in a hearing then you will be approved. Mental is very hard to win on. They tell me of cases that have been won the first time, mine was not, I didn\'t give them enough information. I left out some information, I thought I gave them everything, they sent me for a mental eval, the person doing the test assured me that after his evaluation, I would not have to worry about working again, because in his opinion, I was to disabled to work, well, they found me to disabled to do my job, but not to disable to do some other type of job, so they denied me. They didn\'t say what other type of job I could do, just that I could not return to my usual type of work, but should be able to do something, because of my education, I should be able to find something without any other type of training nessessary. I have a high school education, I drove a truck for the past 25 years. So no education, no training of ANY kind, and 52 years old with a mental illness. All I am saying is be prepared for the denial letter, you will need to appeal this, get a good SSDI attorney, they have them in every state, there are ones that only get paid IF you win, and only AFTER you win, so you don\'t have to give ANY money up front, they take their money out of your award. It is a percentage of the back money owed you, and there is a limit of what they can take set by law. So while my news is bad, it isn\'t that bad. I just want you to be prepared, so that you are not totally devistated like I was. I thought my world had ended. Also, your award will only be about $1000 a month. You can still work and get money though, you can earn about $800 a month gross income without loseing your SSDI.
Larissa238
Larissa238

Thanks for the encouragement. My sister is getting her Ph.D in Social Work out in CA, and she knows all 25 things that need to be on a mental health app to get approved, so I had my bases covered. It\'s just up to the doctor\'s report now. I know I will probably get denied the first time, and have to get a lawyer. My hubby is on disability, but he got it the first time around. So, we shall see!