Moving... I ended things with Geo.

Things are actually good right now, despite being with Geo for almost 12 years. I love him, but I need to be happy. He has helped me from a suicidal wreck to someone who believes in herself. He got me to realize that I deserve better, sadly. Geo has been improving lately, but it's not enough to convince me to stay. I was heartbroken yesterday- he got down on one knee after I took my ring off and begged me to stay and work things out. I was crying, but stuck my ground. I have to- I'm not happy here. When I was in LA, I felt so loved... more than I have in years. I was with my family again, seeing my brothers and sister all the time and staying with Richard, my stepdad, who I have known for about 30 years (I'm 34, so that's pretty much my entire life). I will be staying with Richard, rent free, and until October help Geo pay rent and bills. I'm going to work on a letter tonight with Geo about what will happen with the apartment, damages, the deposit, affirm that I'm going to pay rent until October, and pretty much everything you have to go through in a divorce (we were not married). After I get the paper worked out with him, I'm going to print it, go to the clinic I work at and get it notarized so we both feel safe that things are going to be taken care of. I'm buying my plane ticket when I get the money from Richard, I have a moving estimate from a company that I have researched (it's going to be about $1,150 to get all my stuff moved cross-country with full loading and unloading) and it's good. Everything is getting set in motion. I go to therapy tomorrow and I will talk this out with Julieta so I don't make any changes. I have the paperwork filled out to get Angela registered as an Emotional Support Animal and will pick it up hopefully tomorrow. She can now fly on the plane with me for free. I have to look up health insurance companines in LA, then find a good doctor and medical team. I'm ready to do this. This is thought out, rational, logical and not emotional. Yes, I have been emotional lately- but I have been planning this for months now. If I can take him on his knee begging me to stay (I love him, but there is just too many things to get over for us to be together) then I can take anything else he is going to try and do to get me to stay. I feel at peace and free today. It's a good sign.