Jennheimrich
Status: I'm not allowed to be depressed. I have to be there for everyone else instead....
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nothing in my life matters. no need of my own is signifigant. i am a broken woman right now. this morning i found out my grandfather died in the night. -cries-
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Depression has taken its toll on me. I slept in until 230 this afternoon, then went to see a very dear guy to me. I picked him up from work so that we could go to martial arts training.... well.......
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I need love, I need reassurance, and I especially need friends right now. My grandfather has declined with his cancer... dramatically. I was fired from a job that I had just... fallen for... found my...
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Had a bad day again. Cried alot today, which really isnt like me. Feeling horrible and angry. Pissed off at the world, but mostly at myself. Mistakes, decisions Ive made have led me to where I am. No...
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I cried at work today. I just lost it, and dont know why. Usually Im so composed at work, but today.... somehow it was different. I hung up the call and cried. Couldnt help it, and couldnt stop...
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Bad day at work today. Had kids calling me with unconscious, or not breathing parents, had people calling me trying to reach animal control which is all through the sheriffs office NOT the...
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My life seems to be going into a hundred different directions, and I seem to have no way to stop it all from happening. I am so scared and I am also so excited. I finally had a chance to openly talk...
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Well Im stressed, and excited. I was offered a full time position at my work place today after only a month of working there, now... stressed/scared as hell because I may be pregnant. I had blood...
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today i took many many calls, though i shall never forget two of them that have hit me so hard. the first call i got was a 15 yof (year old female) who was in a car accident, called me freaking out.....
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ALRIGHT ITS TIME FOR UPDATES. I WORK FOR THE COUNTY NOW, AND LOVE IT!! ITS TAXING AT TIMES, BUT WHEN YOURE A 9-1-1 DISPATCHER OPERATOR.... IT HAPPENS. ANYWAY, I AM DOING SO WELL. I AM CLINGING...
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Hey everyone. Loooong time no talkie. Im sorry for that. Grandpa is fighting with everything he has. He refuses to let cancer beat him, and I can see determination in his eyes. No wonder I look up...
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Well I have good news, and I have news that makes people cry. I talked to my boss, theres "no way in the world" I can get those days off to go see him. -sigh- Im going to take this weekend and go see...
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Im crying. Inside Im torn to shreds, and cannot seem to grasp whats real anymore. After work today my father called me, and said he needed to talk to me, and wouldnt say anymore than that. Well, the...
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Well today was my first day on Polk county Fire and EMS dispatch. It was challenging and I loved every second of it! Though, when I walked through the door to get home, my braind literally shut down,...
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Every day I wake to new challenges, and I love it. Tomorrow morning I start working again, I am more than ready for it. Then Tuesday I pay my tuition fees, and get things started. I am so ecstatic. I...
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