Had a bad day again. Cried alot today, which really isnt like me. Feeling horrible and angry. Pissed off at the world, but mostly at myself. Mistakes, decisions Ive made have led me to where I am. No wonder we're all depressed... the job market focuses on everything you ever did wrong instead of ANYTHING you ever did right. -sigh- Talk about kick ya when youre down. My grandfather is steadily falling apart, I was fired today, and to make everything that much better... my father looks at me now with only disappointment. Where his eyes used to show me kindness. Sadness has crept within my heart once again. Threatening this time to never leave.