Well I have good news, and I have news that makes people cry. I talked to my boss, theres "no way in the world" I can get those days off to go see him. -sigh- Im going to take this weekend and go see him anyways, and just hope Im back before work Monday morning. Havent heard any updates about Grandpa, neither good or bad. I guess things are just neutral for now. I try to get my mind distracted but studying my maps and information for my job, but, nothing seems to help. I still think about him, I still want to cry, and throw things. I try so hard not to think about it, and hope at the very least hes happy in the time he has. My grandma is taking it all very hard too. They have been married for over 50 years now... maybe even 60 years, and I have heard this thing where a couple together for that long, when one of them goes... the other shortly follows. I hope that doesnt happen!!! Oh... that would destroy me. Now, that was the news that makes people cry. ( like me ) Now, the okay, or good news is Im finally starting to get the hang of my job. Finally starting to grasp what Im supposed to be doing, or what I need to do. Its complicated, there's no question in that, but I love the challenge.  Every day is always something different. No caller is ever the same, and its truly mind numbing as to how easy things get in time.  I answered some real interesting calls today, and plan to do the same for as long as they want me working there. My boss is proud of me, and slightly annoyed too,. JUst because when I know the answer to something, Im not afraid to help others out. Meh, Its what I do. oh well. Anyway, leave comments. Leave hugs and pray for my grandpa please. he needs a miracle.