My life seems to be going into a hundred different directions, and I seem to have no way to stop it all from happening. I am so scared and I am also so excited. I finally had a chance to openly talk with someone about my frustrations, and pain, and THEY UNDERSTOOD!! Then I told the source of my pain and frustration, and now my life is on the rocky side. I feel like I am walking on glass here. I am like every other person in that I fear the unknown, and that is now where my life is heading. I am leaving the comfortable, and heading forth into the darkness. I am scared. Though, strangely at the same time I look forward to it. I know now that I cannot constantly stay in my "safe" zone, that I must also accept things Ive lived through before, but also step out and make new things happen. Working has helped me fight off depression as well as many other factors. I finally realize that today things will change, things will sometimes become strange and uncomfortable, but Im ok with that. I just had to find a peace within myself to be able to handle the world around me. Which I have done. I have grown up, and matured more than what was EVER comfortable with me... I was used to being the baby of the family, the baby of relationships, the baby of the extended family... but now.. I am one of them, I am an equal. I enjoy it here though, Yes, I like being given extra attention as a child would, but I dont NEED it anymore. I am secure enough within my being to be able to depend on myself for things. I know things arent always going to be where I can solve them myself, but I can try cant I? I dont have to run to others with my pain, frustration, happiness, anger....... whatever. I can resolve to go back to writing, and solve these things myself. You see, theres a poster at work that everyone should see at some point in their life, and take to heart. It says " the only way to get past a problem.. is to work through it." Now tell me... is that not the truth? Ive found out that you cant just ignore problems and they -poof- go away. Nope, sorry folks it doesnt work that way. Life gets hard, decisions get even harder, but all in all these are things that everyone faces. JUst some people choose to solve them one way, others become the "victims" of a situation. I refuse to be a victim. Join me. Join me on a path to life where you can rise above a problem, and work it out. Join me in a peaceful place within ourselves..  but most of all join me in making this world a more enjoyable place to be. CAuse let me tell ya... you wont be alive forever, hell, tomorrow is never guaranteed, so why be miserable in the time you have alive? Why not be happy in the time given to you? That way when you go, whenever that may be, you can always look back, and say I was glad I lived this long, or glad you lived the way you did.... live life without regrets, because ultimately... only the future matters. the past is already come and gone, there is nothing you can do to go back and change that, so move forward, but as you do so... smile.  I wish all of you happiness, and thank you for reading this, but dont JUST read this... take it to heart, live by it, but most of all love yourself, and others will love you too. Bye for now guys. More later.