heretic
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- What does it mean to love yourself. Does it mean to treat yourself they way you wish others treated you? Care for your physical, mental and emotional needs? I do those things but I still feel bad about myself. I know I have made bad choices and have...
- I don't think I've ever been happy in my whole life. I know what sadness, frustration, loneliness and desperation feel like. I know what it feels like to be angry or worried. But I can't get an understanding of Happiness. I wonder if it's just not...
- I am so relieved to have finally gotten into the clinic - some of you already know it's been a VERY long 3 weeks of waiting, with no assurances of getting meds - But I Got Them!!! It's truly a great day. I had to stop taking the Mirtazapine, made me...
- I got verbally beat up on by someone I trusted. They really turned on me and I'm kinda numb. Guess that's better than feeling the pain. I've been going without one of my meds - can't get in to see the pdoc (long story) so my anxiety is really...
- I know I am not mentally or emotionally healthy. I wonder if that is a requirement for having a healthy loving relationship? I know I will always be mentally ill, I may get healthier with meds but it will still be marginal. So I wonder if I will...
- Or do the habits formed by depression become more ingrained the older you get?
- Does age make a difference in being lonely? For a long time I thought it did - I thought the older I got the harder it was to find companionship. But after reading this board for awhile I'm starting to think differently. I see so many younger...
- I survived Thanksgiving and it actually wasn't as bad as I'd thought it might be. Ate some good food with a couple of good friends - couldn't ask for more really. Hope everyone here had a day without trauma.
- To all who are lonely this holiday, I wish you warmth, health and good food.... big big Hugs to all my friends on DS!
- I've messed up my life so many times in so many ways I can't count them all. After almost 50 years on the planet I live under a huge mountain of regrets. And I can trace it all to having bipolar - I hate this f ' ing disease.
- I'm scared that tomorrow won't be any better than today, or last week, or the last year. I can't get the meds I need or the relationship I need even more. I'm scared of the desire I have not to live anymore, scared that one day the pain might...
- How do I ask for support when I can't explain what is wrong? I feel lost, lonely, sad, anxious. Hard to have clear thoughts, have no interest in doing anything, can't concentrate. Seems like it will never get better, each day drags on, each minute...
- Does one lead to the other? I think so, but it's hard for me because I suffer depression in the first place which leads to isolation and then it's a circle that seems impossible to break. I hope finding the right meds some day will help me become...
- I used to use weed daily, it helped with my mania although I didn't know I was bipolar at the time. Since being diagnosed I've started taking Geodon and have found weed has a very different effect on me. It doesn't make me laid back anymore, in fact...
- I think this group was created for a great reason, I know from being in the loneliness group and the depression group that there are many who are lonely and single and this seems like a great way to meet others, chat and give support. So I'm...