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I know you are going thru a rough patch right now, but it does get easier? Have you thought about going on an Anti-Anxiety pill. it would decrease the anxiety your are feeling. Talk to your psych doc about it, perhaps it will do you some good. I hope you feel better soon, this too shall pass

Thanks, I have to wait another week and a half to get into the community clinic, I don't know what drug they may or may not have me try out. That makes me anxious too. The waiting is hard. Thank you both for your support.

I think we all feel that way sometimes even non beepers. If it gets worse talk to your pdoc about tweaking your meds.

l would write down everything you said here it says so much about how you feel and that is what a Dr needs to know

that's a tough one. maybe it's winter/holiday blues.

It's true the holidays don't help, and the long cold dark nights this time of year. But I think I need to get on the right meds and am still in the guinea pig phase. It's very hard because at the community clinic appts are a month apart and there are no med changes in between - it really sucks. But thanks to everybody for trying to help, it means a lot.

I feel just like you when it comes to wishing the day was over, so I can just disappear into sleep.
Most days, as soon as I open my eyes. a depression settles over me and my first thought is, "God, I wish it was bedtime!"
I hope that the days till your community clinic fly be and that you get some first class treatment you're there!!!!
Good luck!!!! ((((Hugs))))

my god thats just how i feel now and im feeling like i have no conrole and its killing me

Heretic.. when i first joined i didn't know what to say or do.. or if people think im a winger! but you know what, we all have the same things in comon.. which makes us all understand each other 100% and care for each other and help each other whenever it's needed! ..your not a winger at all.. your venting..and we are here too help you 100%! and this is what i've realized.. people don't judge you what you say nor do.. you can say you want to kill yourself and people won't judge you.. they will try help you so much.. and so will i! we all care and understand.. you'll get comftable and like it here.. it's a good site.. i love helping people out... but i do have my problems too and when i dno who else to turn to.. i vent on this discussion board exactly how i'm feeling.. and people help... and u can do it too!!
i know how u feel about being lost lonely sad and not being able to express it.. i was like that last night.. just sat and cried and was quiet.. it will go.. today i'm happy thankgod.. but scares me to the fact i dno where and how i'll be tomorrow.. but sleep on it.. it works! i wish you the best!