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- I had to attend the company christmas party, I was dreading it. But I went and it wasn't nearly as bad as I'd built up in my head. I learned - the anticipation can be worse than the event.
- I have to attend the company christmas party and I am dreading it. I never talk to anyone at work and am definitely a loner and things are usually fine that way. But this is a "social" event and I'm not a social creature. I have bipolar and suffer...
- It fuels my depression in a vicious cycle. It seems like there is no way out. I wish I could just enjoy being alone and not need or want anyone else. The holidays just make it worse of course. Can't wait till they are OVER.
- I had horrible dreams last night and now I'm afraid to go to sleep tonight. It's stupid, I know I have to but I'm really not looking forward to it. I usually like to sleep, it's a break from having to think. But not tonight....
- I had horrible dreams last night and don't want to carry the feeling through out my day but am having trouble shaking it off. Dreams about past events so when I woke up I couldn't tell which were the dream and which were memories which makes it even...
- I have f-d up so many situations and hurt so many people along the way. My mind is filled with memories of past events gone wrong. They haunt me waking and sleeping, I dream about the past and wake up feeling like hell. And there is nothing I can do...
- I've hung on for so long, a couple of months now since I've been really depressed, and now it feels like it's closing in on me. Maybe I had to much hope pinned on the new meds, added Zoloft to the Geodon a couple of weeks ago and now I just feel...
- When the depression hits hard I lose all motivation for self care. I don't want to eat, shower, do laundry - nothing. Yet these things must be done for me to function in the outside world, so I can keep going to work (so I don't end up homeless). I...
- It eats away at the soul. I feel like I am wasting away in an absolutely meaningless life.
- I just wanted to thank everyone on here who has been kind, who has listened and been supportive and non-judgmental. Everyone who has taken the time to share their experiences and their advice. Everyone who has cared. You're a wonderful group and I...
- Life just isn't fun at all, I feel so sad but the meds I'm on make it almost impossible to cry. I have no interest in anything anymore, not sex, not music, not talking to friends. I drag myself through each day hating it. I feel like such a whiner,...
- Just started taking Zoloft with the Geodon a week ago. I know it's not long but I'm really not feeling much better. The anxiety is better but the depression seems to be getting slightly worse. Is this how it goes? You get worse on new meds before...
- I'm supposed to take an anti-depressant with the anti-psychotic I take - Geodon - but I've tried several now and each one makes me feel more depressed. I thought they were supposed to do the opposite. It's so discouraging feeling like a guinea pig...
- I have fairly bad social anxiety, can't seem to talk to people for more than a couple of minutes. It's even hard to be around the couple of friends I have for very long - and that is only because they are very understanding of bipolar. I'm wondering...
- I have a lot of trouble being around people, talking to them for more that a couple minutes. I have a couple of great friends and I get anxious even being around them for long, preferring to talk on the phone. I have bipolar and am depressed a lot -...