lostmyselfsomewhere
Status: New meds are kickin my butt
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- I am struggling and have been for awhile now. I know I am sick but I can't afford to see my pdoc right now. I am tired of trying. I am tired of being me. I am tired of being down. I am tired of feeling worthless. All I want to do is sleep but how...
- This is my soul, my connectionMy I that reaches inThis is my spirit, my voiceMy sound that reaches upThis is my heart, my hopeMy me that reaches outThis is my mind, my dreamMy vision that reaches on
- My tears fall like rainon pages full of dreadmy mind searches for answersbut fills with fear insteadmy heart fills with emptinessas the tides ebb and flowmy soul searches for solaceI fear I'll never knowall my dreams have fadedall my truth is...
- I have begun feeling paranoid. I know I am surrounded by people who love me but sometimes this voice in my head tells me they say things in code. That they are really saying bad things nicely. Now I am beginning to feel isolated because I am...
- It seems my med adjustments wear off after a week or two. I don't know why this keeps happening. I don't know if the tweaks are too small or if I finally feel relief that I get used to feeling. But my symptoms return so I don't really believe its...
- I caught my husband having some colorful conversations with another woman. I am devastated, He says it's not like he cheating because this woman lives overseas and they could never get together. I say it doesn't matter. He should never say those...
- I woke up this morning with a paralyzing fear. I had some really bad dreams last night and I don't know if that has anything to do with it. I don't want to leave the safety of my couch and blanket. I honestly beleive something terrible is going to...
- I don't feel wacked out or am I scaring myself. My pdoc, my daughter and my husband have all asked me to go. I am afraid of being locked in. I asked him to get rid of this stupid dog which is not even ours but he says he will not make his 31 year...
- Guys I just don't think I can or want to do this anymore. I'm not talking about death but I can no longer tolerate people at all. I want to scream at the top of my lung. I want to wail and break things. I want to liveon some island where it is...
- So yesterday I was in a down spiral. But I had to go get my medicine. So I slapped on a pair of clean pj's, my snow boots, jacket and gloves. I went to the store. Of course my meds weren't ready (are they ever) so I decided to pick up a few...
- I don't understand how we can put people in space, do organ transplants, face transplants and cure diseases except when it comes to mental illness. Our illnesses can be devastating not only to us but the ones we love so much. I am tired of reading...
- Morning everyone. The insomnia fairy visited again. I go see my pdoc today. I am going to ask her about half way housing. Has anyone ever lived in one and if so how was your experience? My hubbie is on the fence with whether or not he can...
- Sometimes I feel like everything is shoved in my face. It's like I have no control of what happens to me. Sometimes I need to be alone, in a quiet place then bam! Family stops in, the phone starts ringing, and people start making plans without...
- I do not handle mountains of stress well. I call them mountains because no matter how hard I try I can never seem to get them to go away. They seem to wax and wane. It always seems to be the same issues over and over. I don't really have the...
- I hate everything I am. I hate the things that I do. I hate that no one can love me. I hate that I can't seem to get my life together. I am tired of being told I am the problem. I can't stand up for myself because I am always told it's meI hate...