ColleenF

I am still waiting. Nothing new to add. I'm feeling pretty well. Perhaps our prayers were answered and there really isn't anything wrong with me!!!

I still have not heard anything from anyone. I'm taking that to mean that I'm alright. After over a month I'm feeling pretty good now.

Waiting.........Day 2

Days are going ok. I'm still having the mysterious kidney pain. I had the CTwith contrast yesterday and am waiting for a call from the doctor. Today being Friday I don't expect to hear anything until...

   I'm out the door for yet another test. Barium, Yum. It's a good day!

   I am doing well. Still having some pain but I'm happy. Yesterday I was at my desk when I looked up to see a familiar face. It had been so long since I had seen him. His face was so familiar to...

   Here it is, Sunday night. I made it through another weekend without ending up exploding into a big fat blob of pudding in the corner of a padded room. I cried a lot today, did some baking. I had...

Today is quote possibly the hardest day for me in a long time if not ever. Jeff now lives in an urn on top of my entertainment stand. This seems the most appropriate place for him. I found a...

   I went to see the urologist yesterday at the same hospital that Jeff went to for his heart care. I had a breakdown in the lobby. I swear I could feel him there. I'm lucky that my husvand was...

   I went to see my doctor today. I wish I would have stayed home. Turns out I can't handle the truth. I have a mass in my left kidney. He got me into a STAT appt. for tomorrow. I've never gotten...

I was up all night with this same old %##@!#!@%$$% kidney pain and now it's almost time to go to work. I'm mad at my doctor because he has no sense of urgency. Tomorrow he had better come up with...

My day ended up being not so bad. Maybe I'm acting like a spoiled rotten brat about the baby. I still feel the same way. You DO NOT turn your back on family. I want this child so bad that I am...

   Well, the men in my family have spoken. I may not have the baby. I feel like I've lost another part of me. They don't understand what they have done. If we all worked together we could do this....

   Some terrible thing has happened. My grandson's mother, who is no longer with my son, fell asleep and somehow Bambino, who is 1 last month got outside. The police went in and searched the house,...

   Tonight I'm spending the night alone. I hate to be alone. My job is going well. My grief seems to be at bay tonight. Last night that was not the case. I have been having some kidney problems,...