ColleenF

Happy Monday!!! I feel rested, loved and serene. That's all I have to say about that.

This is my trio about sixteen years ago.Jeff is the oldest, Then Tony in the middle and last but not least, Jake. He still has that transparent hair! I'm so proud of this picture. My little...

Oh no! What did I do? I made my employer give me a dispatch position so that I could stay busy and all of a sudden the school kids are back in session and I'm so busy I can't even fart. Mission...

   This morning I feel about half way better. I swear I want off this rollercoaster. It's making me sick. Thanks for being here, Love to you all.  Colleen.

   Well, I guess you could say that I made it through the day. It's over and I'm still alive. I cried untill I'm so dehydrated I can't even spit. I went to work and cried there a lot. Everyone was...

 Today is four months since my Jeffrey died. I'm not well. My huband is at the VA ER. My son Tony is out looking for a job. That leaves me here alone until I go to work. I hate to be alone. I miss...

Today I will be taking one of my live sons to the movies. He lives with me but I don't really get to see him very often. Not quality time. This is a big step, joining the living. Have a good day,...

   Ok, so the peaceful high is gone. It sure was fun while it lasted. I spent some time alone today. Shopping, doing housework and watching tv. For the first time in almost 4months I was able to...

   Well, it's been 24 hours since my peaceful expirience. Do I still feel the peace? You betcha!!!!!! I wish I could bottle it up and send it to you all. It's odd, I'm not even looking for the bomb...

Earlier tonight I was standing outside of my office waiting for my husband to pick me up when all of a sudden I felt this wonderful peaceful feeling. It was so intense it almost made me cry of...

 It.s a wonderful day! I'm 42 years old andI finally figured out what I want to be when I grow up. Well, What I want to go to school for. Business Management. That way I could stay employed at the...

Today is much better than yesterday. I love this day! It rained all night, which in the desert during a 10 year drought doesn't happen too often, I feel refreshed. Happy, ready to live this day.

Ok. I'm a little late but I finally got to the green part of Monday. I love you all, Colleen

   Today I will change my mood. Today I will wear my happy shoes and feel better. I guess it is my choice how I live the rest of the day.    My last journal was me today before ativan. This is me...

   I woke this morning with thoughts of Jeff after transplant and the stupid resident that didn't bother to call me when my son slipped into a coma. I woke that night with chest pain from a dream...