Tonight I'm spending the night alone. I hate to be alone. My job is going well. My grief seems to be at bay tonight. Last night that was not the case. I have been having some kidney problems, probably a stone, so to sleep in my cold bed really hurts. By the time I wake up I hurt so much that I can't walk very well. Jeff had a little hospital bed that I had brought up into my room after he died. I sometimes sleep in it just...because. I love the bed now, it is soooo comfortable and warm. Now I sleep in it a lot. Last night when I laid down I lost it. Couldn't stop crying. Got snot all over my nightgown. Tonight I'm afraid to go to bed. It is 11:51pm. I guess if I'm going to go, I should git, huh? Oh yeah, I had a good day!
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I\'m glad the day was good for you. We have all atone point or another cried until we snot over everything, so not to worry. I\'m glad you kept his be to sleep in occasionally, I assume it brings you great comfort. It\'s morning now so how was the night ok I hope. Love and Hugs Cathy
I hope last nite was better. For me yesterday was a bad day. I haven\'t cried like that in along time. I didn\'t even cry like that on his birthday. Jeff thinks it is because I was busier. I hope you have a good day today. Lots of hugs, Jake\'s mom, Kathy
Heya! It\'s better to get snot on your night gown than it is to bottle your feelings up. Here\'s to our good friend SNOT! :-) I hope you feel better soon. I\'m glad you have a comfy bed to rest in while you\'re not feeling well. :-)
Lots of hugs,
Amanda
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