ColleenF

I don't really think I'm as far along in this grief process as I would like to be. I went to visit my Dad today and all I could do was cry as soon as I got there. Something about being in the arms of...

These are my shoes!!! This picture does not do them justice. Today is a good day, I'm just not feeling very chatty. Love to you all, Colleen. 

   The stangest thing happened last night. I was laying in bed waiting for the ativan to kick in so that I could go to sleep because, you know, I can't sleep without it anymore. I had been having...

 Some stupid ass cut the cables going to the box in my apt. complex. Then they cut every cable every 3 feet. Not only do I not have tv, but no computer either. I should be back and running in a...

Today is Green Monday. I will wear my new sparkley shoes. I had a wonderful weekend. I will have a wonderful week.

ColleenF: I bought the most beautiful shoes last week. My family laughed at me for buying them. They are clogs with blue/green sequins and brown beaded flowers on them. Boy do they sparkle. When I...

 I am steppin' out this weekend. Going to my sister's house. She lives about 80 miles from me and I'm not taking anyone. Just me & my sister. I don't remember the last time we did this. I know it...

Yeserday's emotions have lagged over onto today. I don't like Jeff still being dead. The cause of death so far is right ventricular failure. That"s what was wrong with his own heart. Now we need the...

 It was a good visit with Dr. Bose. When he hugged me I felt white light around me like he were an angel. The word right now is that Jeff died of right ventricular failure. That's exactly what was...

 Today is the day. I'm so nervous. My Mom is here to keep me busy,God bless her.Please pray for us at 2:30mst. They changed our appt time. Gotta go get busy. Love to you all.

 I'm nervous about tomorrow's appt w/ the transplant surgeon. This makes no sense. What's it gonna change? Jeff will still be dead. At least I will have my answers. I'm nervous to the point of...

 Woke up this morning to lower abdominal pain and a flooded bathroom and kitchen. Doc can't see me til 11:15. I suspect some bladder infection. I'll live. I'm glad it is Green Monday, or this day...

 I'm home alone today. That almost never happens. I watched a movie about Beetoven, Immortal Beloved. If you haven't seen it, do. I think with the rest of the day I will veg out in front of the tube...

 Today is a good day. I am happy, the job is going well. My boss couldn't be happier with me. Even thogh Jeff was still dead when I woke up, life still moves on. I love you all for helping me to...

 Sometimes as office staff my job sends me out on the road to pick up clients when we are very busy and the regular drivers just aren't enough. Well, yesterday when I was handed my manifest I knew...