Bigmack1960
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- It's been a long time since I've been here. Depression is over powering. I woke up today so depressed I haven't been off of the couch all day . I go to a lot of AA meetings and I always try to get there early and stay late. I feel like I have to be...
- My sister-in-law is doing better. She's had 5 or 6 ect treatments. The hospital wants to discharge her on Friday. But 2 days ago she said her mom was in her or something to that effect. Her mom has been dead for 5 years. I guess at times she thinks...
- Some good news about me. Last Thursday my wife and I went to a children's Christmas program at an elementary school. It was very crowded. I actually enjoyed it. I had no over powering intrusive thoughts all though I was anxious about going. For me...
- My sister-in-law has had 3 ECT treatments with very little improvement. As for myself I'm just trying to get by. I want out of some commitments. I think the stress of it all is beginning to get to me. The problem is I use the commitments to keep me...
- My sister-in-law has had her first ect treatment. There's been no change in her psychosis. She'll receive another tomorrow. Part of her story is she was molested as a child. She's been a drug addict and an alcoholic since at least high school. Many...
- Good morning everyone. First thing I don't like the update here. I have several unwanted ads. It seems as if this site went commercial. I've been having violent dreams about things that happen in my life. They run continuous when I'm sleeping. I...
- Good morning everyone. I was woke up by a phone call from a nurse at the VA this morning. She was asking a lot of questions about my physical health. I have gurd that's not being helped by medication. I also have trouble swallowing food and liquids....
- I don't understand yesterday I was invited to some friends for Thanksgiving and an hour before I was to leave for their apartment I became frozen to the couch. These are some really good people that I truly trust and enjoy. So that's what I don't...
- I'm my wife's care giver somewhat and since deer season has ended I now have to spend a lot of time with her. The anxiety is building up. I sometimes don't feel like talking to her. It seems all she can talk about is her medical conditions. Or else...
- Good morning everyone. I'm sitting here deer hunting. I had a nightmare that woke me up at 4am. So here I sit hoping a buck comes by me. Thanks to everyone that replied yesterday. I really needed the support. Hoping everyone has a great day
- I'm so tired of forcing myself to do things. I wish it was different. Feeling so sad, depressed. F***ing intrusive thoughts have won again. I'm so afraid to go out . I don't know what triggered me. Severe nightmares last night. I hate it when I wake...
- Good morning everyone. Today I go deer hunting for the first time in a long time . I was going to go yesterday but our neice had a baby. They are both doing well. The baby's name is Cleo Lea. She weighed 6 lbs.6 ounces. So now today I get to hunt. I...
- I have some good news. It's deer hunting season where I live and I'm doing it. It's the first time in 3 years. To me it's a huge step forward. I love anything that involves nature. And the meat is good. I really don't care if I get a deer or not....
- Good morning everyone. TW I'm wondering is anyone else drawn to the daily news about the actors telling about being raped and molested? I am not into drama. In fact I avoid it when ever possible. For those who don't know I have ptsd from mst. While...
- I have had continuous nightmares all night tonight. TW I have a crack head sister in law that is in the hospital because of psychotic episodes. The stress that puts on me is enormous. It causes my wife to struggle which in turn puts stress on me....