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I'm having a hard night tonight.  I know that Chuck is gone, but I would give anything to see him walk in the room.  I think that it is the time of year that is making it emotionally hard for me. ...

Oh how I miss you honey.  On Saturday, I was drying off after a shower.  I had all but my right foot to dry... lifted it up and my knee gave way, the one that has had a total knee replacemt.  I...

This weekend, my 2 sons and myself make the trip to Oklahoma to take part of Chuck's ashes down there to be buried over his parent's graves.  Part of him is now resting eternally in the area where...

Today I really missed my best friend, etc.  It was a beautiful fall day and we would have gone for a ride..either in the car or on motorcycles.  Sundays are always hard, so that added to the...

The past couple of days, I have been thinking and wondering "just what is my purpose here on earth now."  My sons are grown and are living their own lives.  I try to not bother them much.  I'm not...

I sit here tonight at the computer with the TV on.  I have to vent, so bear with me.  This is how my nights will go from now on.  It's scary to think that this how the rest of my life will be. ...

Empty.   That's the emotion that I've been feeling the most since losing my husband.   My heart and soul feels like an empty glass.  I try find happiness in life and occasionally I do.  Very...

Today was a hard and frustrating day.  I tried to replace my doorbell.  After 2 hours of trying to get it to work, it still didn't.  So, I will probably get a wireless doorbell and forget about...

I called our youngest tonight, telling him I still loved him and we needed to talk.  We both decided that maybe both of us were suffering from PTSD from going through Chuck's illness and death.  ...

Today I'm feeling alone.  I thought I had the support of my 2 sons, but guess I don't.  They both made it clear that they feel like they need to be here for me.  The irony of this is that neither...

A few weeks after Chuck died, I went to see my Mom.  She has been a widow for 8 years, having lost my Dad in 2002.  She gave me some advice saying, "A man doesn't make who you are.  You are still...

The weekend is half over.  Here I sit at the computer, wishing you were here Chuck.  Today I showed our bus to some  prospective buyers.  I thought they were serious about buying it, but spent 1...

Tonight I met a male that I had been corresponding with on the computer, that I met on Match.com.  He asked me to our county fair that is going on now until Sunday.  I really enjoyed meeting him...

Here it is...2:30am and I'm at the computer.  I worked evening shift, so it takes me awhile to unwind after working, especially after it is busy as it was tonight.  Checking e-mail's and this site,...

Hi computer and everyone.  Today was a better day emotionally.  I did get my lawn mowed, but stayed inside alot because of the high humidity.  My body and the humidity don't get along.  I talked...