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- Just sitting out in the sun and for one moment not being swarmed by negative thoughts. Just one day where I don't think about the horrors and just live in the moment instead. That's what I'm working for now. I've got a long road ahead but at least I...
- I wonder if the only way to get over my ex is to completely forget all the good and only remember the bad. I have already pushed so much of it away in a corner of my mind where I don't see it anymore. I don't think I would willingly look at it and...
- Yesterday I had a bit of time off in the hospital. (I'm a nursing student.)So one physiotherapist approached me and told me that I should take Paula (I'm changing the name for protection of patient privacy) out of the ward so she could enjoy some...
- Today must have been one of the best days of my life so far. I'm always assuming things get better so let's see.In midst of the joy I felt broken. I remembered my first love and how I said we were gonna grow old together. It occured to me that we...
- I'm just sitting in the car. Can't get up. Can't move. I don't see any point in anything. I wish everything had been different. I feel empty and betrayed and lonely. My plans for tonight changed abruptly because I had to leave my parents home to go...
- 2 days ago I had a very bad dream. I think many people never experience the type of dreams I have. It's a bit like lucid dreaming but also I can literally be at two or more places at the same time. I felt my own existence and my self so strongly in...
- It's 3:30 in the night where I am right now. I just had one of the worst nightmares in my life so I turned the light on and I'm sitting alone in my room. I woke up feeling scared of everything. Scared of the dark, scared of the door to the outside...
- Recently I have experienced myself as a stronger version of who I used to be. I have a good friend. I use him to reflect on my reality and he helps me step away from strong emotions and that in turn helps me be more who I want to be. He seems...
- I believe that memories are quite important in how we see ourselves and the world. We can be aware that we live in a bubble (everybody does), but we can never leave behind preconceptions 100%. One can not change what they aren't aware of. So I...
- It does happen a lot recently that I have medium to good days.Using different types of meditation has helped me a lot. Then there's music. Relationships. I feel a sort of resistance as I'm moving forward. How dare I question the wisdom of lies I...
- I can't even.. it's like I'm... There's no words. It's not the first time I have cut a suicidal person out of my life. But the questions just keep sworming my head. All the pressure. I don't know where this is coming from. We haven't talked in...
- Now this is a weird thing to even complain about.. but for the biggest part of my life people have told me that I am smart. Smart and talented in so many ways. Now why would that bother me? Because I myself have interpreted it to mean that I have...
- Apparently I'm aloof, mean and hurtful when I argue during break ups. Fine. He definitely had some of it coming either way. I didn't try to be hurtful, I just said what I think and then I let him leave because for the love of god I will not try to...
- The question that is the heading of this "Discussion" has shaken me up for a few days now. For all the anger I have when someone upsets me, do I have an equal amount of appreciation when I have the opportunity for peace? I've stopped thinking about...
- I'm going through another one of those phases where it feels like I'm dying inside because in order to adjust to new circumstances I have to change what and who and how I care about things and people. I've been having small successes every day for...