Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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ThatOne 05/04/2018

I'm just sitting in the car. Can't get up. Can't move. I don't see any point in anything. I wish everything had been different. I feel empty and betrayed and lonely. My plans for tonight changed abruptly because I had to leave my parents home to go to my own place. There was 5 surprise visitors and I'm too tired now to deal with my rude family. So I left to my own place. I feel bad. But also I feel like I should have done this a long time ago. I'm tired of being friendly and polite only to be insulted and talked down to. Maybe I'm the one who left but I still have more grace than any of those people.

I just want to feel something. Anything.

If things were going to change I think they would have by now.

Somewhere deep inside... there's just nothing.

rcurtis1010 05/04/2018

I'm sorry youre going through this right now.. If you need someone to talk to feel free to message me :)

SomeGuy092 05/04/2018

I'm sorry that your family was rude to you. And emptiness doesn't make things any better. It can make a person feel directionless. But don't be hard on yourself. You're family is fortunate to have someone as polite as you. It's good that you're giving yourself a break

shadowlady 05/04/2018

So sorry about this. I KNOW family can and do hurt you worse than anyone. Your self worth is not determined in what others think of you though. Blessings

Solus 05/04/2018

I don't like surprise visitors. I like advance notice. You are entitled to your own space and to leave a situation where you feel uncomfortable. Shame it's your family that has you feeling this way. You were polite to them, but you needed to look out for yourself.
Now you're removed from them, I hope you will feel more energised. I hope you at least got yourself out of the car by now?

ThatOne 05/04/2018

I did. I went shopping and then home. Things look better with a warm meal in the belly. They always do.

Solus 05/04/2018

I'm really glad to hear that I'm giving you a thumbs up! :)

jel 05/14/2018

So glad you were able to pick yourself up and move through that pain. As Shadowlady said, your self worth is also important. We may feel that it's a Christian or good thing to do to continue trying to influence others (especially those we love) to do well; however there is also a time when perhaps our influence can be a silent one (prayer for example). It think about a scripture (paraphrased) were Jesus told His disciples that if they went to a town and shared the Good News and it wasn't received they should dust off their sandals and move to the next town. It may seem cold, but I've always taken this to mean that sometimes you have to move on from people who just don't want to listen to what can help them to others that will benefit from it. And the world needs so much love! ;)

And yes, it's really hard to do this when it's your own family, because we feel like we've abandoned them or even empty as you said, because it's as if we've lost a physical part of ourselves. But knowing when to leave space for time apart is wisdom. As I mentioned before, you can still pray for them or send a card or letter (communicate otherwise), etc. And, it doesn't mean the relationship is over forever.

Finally, I am a believer that it's harder to be there for others if we are beat down and oppressed, which is what it sounds like is happening when they mistreat you. So, taking time to heal and be well so that you can share you loving nature (and it sound like you are such a person) to others is worth it!

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