Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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ThatOne 04/12/2018

I can't even.. it's like I'm... There's no words. It's not the first time I have cut a suicidal person out of my life. But the questions just keep sworming my head. All the pressure. I don't know where this is coming from. We haven't talked in months. I just have a very bad feeling.

I could go on even if he dies. I'm not that dependent and I know that it's not my fault and that it was reasonable not to talk to him anymore.

It's about value. It's about knowing. And I don't know if he's safe. If we were still talking I also wouldn't know. I might never know.

Despite everything I want to see how it plays out. Not yet. But one day. Provided he isn't dead then. I just would really like to see him being stable. I don't think he'd be so stable that I'd feel safe around him. But stable so I feel like he won't hurt himself.

I'm torn between thinking I shouldn't care and knowing I can't change it. Caring and hurting does define humans. There's obviously way more to being human than just hurting. But it is part of it.

WanderingVet 04/12/2018

I don't know if this is 'suicide manipulation' but if it is, it is about the worst thing a person can do to another.

This is a case of knowing what you can do and what you cannot do. If you can keep someone from killing themselves ... do it. If not ..give it up.

ThePepperMan 04/12/2018

This is like my 10th attempt to write something here. It sounds like you have analyzed this and concluded that this person needs more help than you can provide; it sounds like he needs some serious in-patient help, but it is doubtful that he will do so.

I agree with your leanings; caring for a person who is vested in self survival is good. He does not seem to be looking for survival.

Gentle hugs; do let us know how you are doing

CoDeGirl 04/12/2018

You are a good person to care! But it sounds like he needs professional help, which you know you can't give him. I hope you feel better soon.

SuZQ 04/16/2018

You heart for him is a sign of your compassion. Compassion is a gift and one that not everyone has. Yet, it can leave us feeling helpless, like you are describing. We know we can only control ourselves, yet it hurts when we cannot help others control their negative actions and words. Praying for you to have peace and know you have done as much as you can for your friend.

dubeyvikas 04/16/2018

Do not kill yourself because of others. It is their work to speak but it is your responsibilities to let bad one go and make yourself awesome.
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