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  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: ThatOne

  Posted: 07/23/2018

  ThatOne commented on the discussion Bad family, feeling awful.

• Depression
  

  Hey there

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  Last Reply: SimpsonsOK 07/21/2018

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  I feel wiser than I used to be. Not that I was stupid. I will admit that if I could go back in time and change some things, I wouldn't hesitate one bit. I never would have met that monster. But also.. I couldn't have known. I don't think I'm happy. I just keep myself distracted. Being distracted is good. Boredom and too many thoughts cause me to live in a hell I create in my mind. I can't deal with everything. I get a bit better every day. I want things to progress. I want to erase myself and...

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: ThatOne

  Posted: 06/20/2018

  ThatOne commented on the discussion Scared of me.

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  Scared of me

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  Last Reply: AnnieToman 06/21/2018

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  Through different themes in my thoughts I found that I am scared of silence. I am scared of being without a distraction. I am scared of spiraling down negative thoughts again. I would probably be fine but I can't let other people dictate their anxieties onto me. I have my own anxieties but I can handle them. I can't handle the stuff I got from other people though. I'm not that strong and that's ok.I'm sad because I never had a parent that didn't make my life worse. For the longest time they...

• Depression
  

  Piece of opinion

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  Last Reply: SimpsonsOK 06/17/2018

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  There's a relatively popular opinion that millenials like me have been so spoiled in their childhood that once they enter into the real life they complain and feel like they are being wronged. My personal experience is that while my childhood was deeply traumatic, it is true that I was also sheltered from quite a lot of things. (It's not my fault though.)My mom did not really give me a lot of good life advice. My dad left. All I got was a weird mix of utopian and dystopian viewpoints. (E.g....

• Insomnia
  

  Melatonin

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  Last Reply: sptrout 06/15/2018

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  I can't sleep. I know that without meds I won't be able to sleep all night. Furthermore I will ruminate and beat myself up, spiraling down negative thoughts and feelings. Tired me is not capable of controlling my thoughts, especially over an entire night.So it's better I take the meds.But if I take the meds I am admitting tp myself that I am broken to the point where I'm not able to function without medicine. Most of the time I just prefer to believe I'm not broken.

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: ThatOne

  Posted: 06/13/2018

  ThatOne commented on the discussion Phone.

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: ThatOne

  Posted: 06/13/2018

  ThatOne commented on the discussion Phone.

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: ThatOne

  Posted: 06/13/2018

  ThatOne commented on the discussion Phone.

• Depression
  

  Phone

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  Last Reply: ThatOne 06/13/2018

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  I just had a weird moment of surprise after realizing that the unclear question that was forming in my mind could not be answered by using my phone. The answers to my problems can not be found online/offline/in academic literature. Even Google after all, really does not know everything.When it comes to the fates of individuals, that your life and everyone else's life is made up off, google can not provide all (and not even the most important) answers. The most important questions remain...

• Depression
  

  Sleepless ramble

  Posted by: ThatOne

  Last Reply: rcurtis1010 06/11/2018

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  I can't sleep. Why not make another post? So today I thought that actually I would not want to be happier than I am. I feel an appropriate amount of happiness. Complete bliss would keep me from striving, exploring and developing and those things have a value in themselves. So do I do those things enough in order to allow for my own happiness? Probably not. In a sense I am grieving all the time. Giving importance to losses that probably deserve the importance. But not giving importance as...

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 06/08/2018

  ThatOne commented on the discussion Highschool SUCKS.

• Depression
  

  Abuse

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  Last Reply: SimpsonsOK 06/03/2018

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  It's a funny testimony to the human psyche, that I have been getting more used to a healthier way of treating myself and acting in relationships, and it scares me so much I want to go back to my abusive ass family or ex-bf or just somebody who could tell me that I'm worthless. I truly believe that this is exactly how deeply rooted laziness is into humans. (To put it simply and also put a funny spin on it.)

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: ThatOne

  Posted: 05/31/2018

  ThatOne commented on the discussion I just want everything to stop.

• Depression
  

  I just want everything to stop

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  Last Reply: CatinMichigan 05/31/2018

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  I wanted to be productive today. But I'm too exhausted. I just can't get up. I feel physically and mentally exhausted and drained so much. To be fair, I have been working hard this week. Just today I have been sooo exhausted. Tomorrow's work again and so is the weekend. 6-day weeks are not fun.I should at least do some sports so that I start having more energy in the future. I am so angry and frustrated and I feel like I'll never feel better. I hate forcing people to do stuff but sometimes as...