Kikio
Status: Just broken.....yeah that's the word that fits me best. "Broken & defective" Please be patient with me. I know so much of what I say, and how I feel, makes no sense at all. I'm trying to figure it out, but it's so complicated and overwhelming.
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=D Yay !!! the switch finally flipped and I'm "me" again the positive, energetic, friendly person I actually recognize!!!It's so wild how I can go from debilitatingly depressed (for months) to...
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Not gonna post a giant self-loathing rant. No energy for that....just a question.Does anyone else totally freeze when the phyciatrist, therapist or doctor ask "do you have any questions or anything...
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TRIGER WARNING .......crap! I made it home safely T_T. I was really hoping to die in bazaar accident on the way.I've already self harmed tonight. I won't act...
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I'm beginning to think my vacation days are cursed -_-Last time I had a few days off over the Thanksgiving day holiday. I had a terrible mixed episode, a complete psychiatric break the last day of...
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Last day of work until the new year.I'm both excited and nervous.I don't know why the holidays are always so difficult for me. I want to be able to enjoy my family and the things I love (or am...
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Daily DevotionIdentifying Your War ZoneMonday, 12/08/2025Life has a way of throwing us into situations that feel like active battlefields. Maybe it's a financial crisis that keeps you awake at night,...
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I GIVE UP!!!I wanna give up on doctors.Therapists,medication all of it!!I'm not okI'm just so tired Tired of trying so hard, doing everything I'm asked and still falling short...... still feeling...
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Ive been hypo-manic since last wensday (6 days). It's not the most intense manic episode I've ever had, but it was the longest so far for me. Slept 3 or less hours a night for almost a week yet...
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Does anyone know anything about Cyclothymia?Even how to pronounce it would be helpful. I guess it's a "mild form of bipolar"?I don't know -_- just that my pdoc is now evaluating me for...
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Why is DBT so freekn HARD!!!This is IMPOSSIBLE!!!I can't remember practice and actually DO all this !!!I can't remember it all when I'm calm much less when I'm in "emotional mind" or disregulated or...
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I've been gone a few months, but my therapist insisted it was time to return to a support group.-_- I just feel really lost and lonely tonight. Could I trouble anyone for an encouraging word...
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Feel so out of sorts, the last few days. I can't stop thinking about it. My mind races in never ending circles of despair. My soul feels empty; my heart heavy and shattered into...
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Some day maybe I'll learn to stop talking stupid risks and doing things I know are risky and dangerous. I'm not sure why I do that so often. Last Saturday I was working, painting a couple...
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Good morning (^_^)I hope everyone is well and having a great day today.If you know me long enough, I'm sure at some point you'll see me have a complete meltdown and wonder 'what the heck, what...
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Oh my gosh I'm so tried today my whole body aches.Its that feeling like you have after a car crash...only there was no crash, physical anyway, no physical trauma or illnesses.I'm told that normal...
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