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The heart is heavy, the tears can't stop flowing,"I don't like you"Is what have been said"Nobody will ever love you,You will grow up and nobody will ever care""I don't care" is what been said to...

I still wake up with the words I am going to tell him in my mind,  I have not call him.   After the incident last week it made it a little easier.  I realize no matter what I try to answer to...

Went to work today, and my shoe department was well...horrible.  With no one to close last night the whole thing was a mess, I had work, work, work just to make the department look presentable. ...

Well I have kept the no contact rule until yesterday...he had been calling me and leaving me messages, he wants me to sell a property we have back home and I don't want to because is close to my...

I received in the mail a picture of my grandma, who is still alive at some say 95 others 97 years old.  I love the picture and I know she made a copy for me because of that.My grandmother was an...

Woke up this morning with a burning desire to call him and give him a peace of my mind.  UUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHH!Have not done so.   Last time I spoke with him in the phone I realize I can't do it. ...

Well I started editing the first 3 chapters of my book, and then I remember more details, and just kept writing,  adding more details here and there, like my brother's first crush, and his first...

Today I have gone back and reread my own journal, open letter to my ex, I wrote that when I tought I was doing better, and I was. Lately I have let anger consumed me for the most part of my days.But...

Its early,  the sun is out there shinning trough my window.  And  it occured me that maybe, maybe a place of my own wouldn't be so bad.  I checked some places yesterday and it seems I will be...

There is a place of sadness,a place of desperationeven loneliness.There is a place where the sunplays permanent hide and seek with the clouds.A place so low, most people did not knowit existed.And...

When I signed the divorce papers I did not asked for anything.  I wanted out and not see him or have anything to do with him.   I wanted it over.  He promise me he wil continue to pay for the...

Please God help me,to keep a nice attitude when her father,who did not gave a hoot about her for more than three months,comes to take her out.Please God help me,to leave my anger and my sadness out...

So my ex picks up our daughter around 10:30 pm ( doing this quite frequently lately) and when he  comes back he sends with her a gift for me....just some candy and a hand written note...I will...

I feel so much better today.  Over the weekend I went out with friends, good food, good laughs.   I danced so much I can't even remember when was the last time I danced like this, probably when I...

I am writing much more these days,  my book is about my brother, he had spine bifida and we were very close, is about his wittiness, his sense of humor and how priveledge I was of having him as my...