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Woke up this morning with a burning desire to call him and give him a peace of my mind.  UUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHH!Have not done so.   Last time I spoke with him in the phone I realize I can't do it. ...

Well I started editing the first 3 chapters of my book, and then I remember more details, and just kept writing,  adding more details here and there, like my brother's first crush, and his first...

Today I have gone back and reread my own journal, open letter to my ex, I wrote that when I tought I was doing better, and I was. Lately I have let anger consumed me for the most part of my days.But...

Its early,  the sun is out there shinning trough my window.  And  it occured me that maybe, maybe a place of my own wouldn't be so bad.  I checked some places yesterday and it seems I will be...

There is a place of sadness,a place of desperationeven loneliness.There is a place where the sunplays permanent hide and seek with the clouds.A place so low, most people did not knowit existed.And...

When I signed the divorce papers I did not asked for anything.  I wanted out and not see him or have anything to do with him.   I wanted it over.  He promise me he wil continue to pay for the...

Please God help me,to keep a nice attitude when her father,who did not gave a hoot about her for more than three months,comes to take her out.Please God help me,to leave my anger and my sadness out...

So my ex picks up our daughter around 10:30 pm ( doing this quite frequently lately) and when he  comes back he sends with her a gift for me....just some candy and a hand written note...I will...

I feel so much better today.  Over the weekend I went out with friends, good food, good laughs.   I danced so much I can't even remember when was the last time I danced like this, probably when I...

I am writing much more these days,  my book is about my brother, he had spine bifida and we were very close, is about his wittiness, his sense of humor and how priveledge I was of having him as my...

Dear exOur lives are no longer ours, we went backwards to that unfamiliar place where you were you and I was I.  Tears, loneliness, sadness and darkness filled so many years of our...

Today I went to get a new cable box (mine blew off-did not tought that could happended).  I got lost in the process, it took me almost all day,  on the way home it  was rainning, frustrated and...

So I come from my long day at work home, and I am tired, but otherwise ok.  Then I saw picture:  my daughter's graduation, last year.  And my heart sank.  I just realized it might had been the...

So it has been a week since my divorce,  am not crying or angry about it.  Maybe it was because I cried a lot the last 3 years over a broken marriage.  Is it normal for me not to feel sad?  I...

Sometimes I have to remember all the emotional manipulation my ex put me through to be able to move on.  I really did not knew how bad I was until one day I literally started almost hearing the...