im ready to be served...

was watching a sermon online.  i totally get the concept that i must b broken 4 God to b able to use me. however right now i cant yet praise him for what has been allowed in my life, I'm still angry and hurt at being cheated on and not being loved by my h and the ending of my marriage.  if its gods plan i intellectually and perhaps by faith i know that it will glorify god...that it will b OK. but right now I'm not there. I'm just broken.