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• Depression
  

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  Posted by: Wesleymon1

  Posted: 12/04/2022

  Wesleymon1 liked the discussion Life feels very meaningless and depends on others.

• Depression
  

  Life feels very meaningless and depends on others

  Posted by: Wesleymon1

  Last Reply: Bobby5000 12/05/2022

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  This requires a lot of context so sorry in advance but it'll be a long read. In 2015 I moved back to Virginia after spending a few years with my mom and abusive stepdad. I had developed pretty bad depression at the time but this new start was pretty good for me. When I had started school I had gotten my first girlfriend ( I will call her girl A). While at this school my mom had gotten into another relationship with another awful person. Eventually I was forced to move to a different city with...

• Depression
  

  Everything is very hard

  Posted by: Wesleymon1

  Last Reply: jannytheresa 12/05/2022

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  Right now I'm sitting in a empty room at work alone. I'm supposed to be cleaning paint of off cabinets and windowsills but I can't bring myself to do anything. I've been sitting here crying for the last hour. This feels almost like a waste of time. My dad is out today because he has a doctors appointment and I'm supposed to be saving money for when he's out of work for his operation in a couple months but I've been trying to look into some sort of therapy, but I can't find anything that will...

• Depression
  

  Feel very alone

  Posted by: Wesleymon1

  Last Reply: Chstraumas 09/08/2022

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  This is the most alone in my life I can ever remember feeling. Between every bit of stress and being depressed at home and work I tried to force myself outside to go play a card game at a local card shop. A place where similar people to me exist that share interests. Even there in a room of 30 people, I felt so insignificant. I had nobody to talk to at all. In an hour of being there I started to get a wave of depression that made me wish I never left the house. Ever going somewhere to...

• Breakups & Divorce
  

  Everything Is meaningless

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  Last Reply: serenityspeaks 09/01/2022

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  I can't help but think about her 24/7. I can talk to her any time i want, play games with her online, and even tell her I love her. She said she loves me the same, and that she just isn't as ready as she thought she was, and we are continuing our ddlg relatinship because its helpful mentally for both of us, but she hasen't given me any signs that she is ready to be together again. I've slowly gotten closer to her again by helping her calm down when shes overwhelmed, and being her safe space...

• Breakups & Divorce
  

  Bad Time

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  Last Reply: GirlinCalif 08/21/2022

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  Today has been the hardest morning i have had in a very long time. Last night my girlfriend confronted me that she wasent ready for a relationship. For five months we have been together in a long distance relationship and with all the chaos in my life it really felt like she was all I had. She said she would still talk to me, I could still play games with her, and we could still even tell each other that we love one another, yet I can't help that even with all that it doesn't feel the same in...

• Depression
  

  Everything is falling apart

  Posted by: Wesleymon1

  Last Reply: helllloooooo 08/15/2022

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  I feel like everything is falling apart around me and its becomming increasingly hard to deal with. I moved back in with my dad about 4 months ago. When i had moved in i had a relationship, was doing pretty well in college, and was on antidepressants. I was feeling generally pretty good about life. Since then things have kinda turned to a point that is very hard for me to deal with. My girlfirend is polyamorous which already causes a bit of uncomfortable situations, but she is also long...

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• Healthy Relationships
  

  Having some issues

  Posted by: Wesleymon1

  Last Reply: SunCloudJD 07/19/2022

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  A while back (about 3 months ago) I started a relationship with a woman i met online who i played games with. The issue is that shes always been polyamorous. This is something thats repeatedly been very hard for me to deal with. I try my hardest to deal with it, but I have alot of problems with feeling like not getting time with her expecially considering that i am long distance where her other relationship isnt. I also tend to feel bad due to the fact that i try very hard to be good to her and...

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  Joined New Group

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  Posted: 07/16/2022

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• Depression
  

  Recurring troubles

  Posted by: Wesleymon1

  Last Reply: WanderingVet 02/02/2019

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  Things in my life started to look up for a change. I started living with my dad as my mom moved out of the state and this has helped me a lot to be less stressed and I feel like I'm in a safe environment now. Although as I moved to my dad's, I realized that I moved farther away from my friends. My female friend in particular helped me a lot to move past my last relationship and means a lot to me. With being busy with school and not being able to drive myself to see her, I began to feel lonely...

• Depression
  

  Feeling pretty bad and can't sleep

  Posted by: Wesleymon1

  Last Reply: sherril2291 10/18/2018

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  Usually while trying to sleep i would spend hours just feeling bad because im lonely. I've had a cat for a while now and she usually helps those nights. Recently I discovered bumps under her chin and although I'm sure it's nothing I've been started thinking alot about it negatively. The past few weeks I've just thought about what would happen if I didn't have her anymore. She's my only friend these days. She is the only thing who listens to me and I can trust. And she's always there when I need...